Night Howls
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@Sister I know what you mean about how diagnosis seems like a lifetime ago. My perception of the time that has passed between what I was doing last year and now are so skewed. I'm constantly surprised when I find myself saying "last year ..." and then think - "Was it REALLY only last year?!" My anniversary is 30 Nov. And I definitely identify with the high-functioning, high self-expectations factor. All the best for your return to work. No doubt it will be frustrating but hopefully satisfying too. xx1
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Ladies it will be another milestone your 1 yr check ups it is anxiety provoking but it it so good then you are told it is all good.
Sister take it one day a time and I am sure you have learnt some skills through the ride which you will utilise in both your home and workplace. remember to rest if you need to .... those young people at home will survive if they have to continue to help with meals and housework while you are reestablishing routines of returning to work.
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Good luck @Sister. I hope it's not too nerve wracking. In the end I think it will be so good for you to go back to work. You like your job (love even?) and define a big part of yourself as librarian. Returning to something familiar, satisfying and stimulating that has nothing to do with BC, can't be anything but good, surely? If there are a few bumps on the way, that's OK. You're not a robot!
Be kind to yourself G. Always. K xox3 -
Best wishes for a smooth return to the workforce @sister.
Although I don't return to the classroom until February, I have started initial communications with my boss re my role in 2019. It seems that teaching upper primary maths (which I love to do and have spent a lot of money on buying books and resources, subscribing to websites and attending conferences and workshops for the latest and greatest methodology) will not be available to me. So now I am stressing.... the things we spoke about will all be new - things I haven't taught since curriculum changes a few years back and grade levels I get no enjoyment out of. I was hoping to slip back in to what I knew and loved. Seems like cancer has taken something else from me now.
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Thanks for the good wishes, everyone. I'm feeling the anxiety this morning and to make it worse, it's going to be a long, tense drive to work in the stormy weather.
@JJ70 What a bummer! I don't know how the WA Educ Dept works but I guess you can only keep your name in for the role you want and keep an eye on the ads. But I know how hard it would be to return to work AND a new workplace. I love where I work and the team I work with, and I'm really good at my job, but I'm packing it at the moment.1 -
@JJ70 if BC does nothing else it schools us in the art of absorbing disappointment, it also gets us used to adapting to new challenges. You've been doing some pretty interesting new stuff with your campaign and have proven you can reinvent yourself. It would be lovely to go back to what you are used to at work, but have some faith in your own ability and you will be fine. Mxx
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@Zoffiel thank you for your inspiring and kind words. Yes, it is disappointment that I am dealing with and in the whole scheme of life it is not that important. I just do not want to be spending a great deal of my time doing things I am not passionate about. If cancer has taught me anything it is that, don't waste precious hours of life on stuff that doesn't float my boat. I hate seeing all of these resources here in my office going to waste.....all awesome books on teaching maths and boxes and boxes of practical resources.....7 years of collecting it all.
Another perspective is being open to teaching something different and who knows, it may be a new passion in the making..........I loathe the time and energy it will take from me though....
@Sister... my workplace will be the same. The same wonderful school I have taught at for the past 11 years and the one my daughter attends. My role has been consumed by replacement staff in the last 18 months and everything has shuffled. My role as Maths Co-ordinator and senior class maths teacher is gone.....I will most likely be doing bits and pieces in all the classrooms and not be able to develop rapport with kids easily as I won't be spending a great deal of time with any of them. This to me is the best part of teaching - making connections and making a difference.0 -
@JJ70, I feel for you. Teaching is so much more than imparting curriculum and I know you understand that from your comments about being limited in building rapport with students because your time with them will limited. Even though you might not get very long with them, my observations of your enthusiasm, passion and caring on this forum will mean that for most of them, and some of them in particular, the time you do spend with them will be the light in their day - maybe the only light in their day, depending on their life circumstances. You will be the person they connect with that will give them hope that someone cares and is interested in them. I also envisage you coming up with something in your school that provides something extra to students - like the way you have with the 'can do' campaign. I understand how hard it is to return to work - I have had many goes, in different roles over 3dx over 13 years, some unsuccessful. Whatever you do, in whatever role, even though it will be different and possibly difficult, I believe you will be amazing. My best wishes to you for next year. The students will be all the better for your return, in whatever capacity. Xx 💜7
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@JJ70 maybe you’ll be that teacher that makes a huge difference in a child’s life whether that be in the maths sphere or another one I’m sure you’ll bring your passion for teaching to whatever the role is and kids notice passion and respond accordingly.
Well I survived my first four hours back at work this morning! I have a new staff member - employed to take up the slack in my absence - she seems lovely and it will be good to have work covered while I slowly return. Ready for a nap now so I can face tomorrow
Thanks @kmakm and @Flaneuse it did feel good to do something normal3 -
Sooo tired. But I survived.5
