greets me with seamless blue skies and a startling crispness,
deafening silence envelopes me,
deeply I take my breath, suspended in that moment,
My fear, my
release, my pain,
of the things I no longer control, faith in something unseen,
If only to
see you again, to know with certainty of the heavens in which you await,
who I am, in the depths of who I was made to be,
The clash, contrast
and acceptance of all that I am without you.
keeps turning whilst I no longer hear you, feel you or see you.
fading as I search my endless mind, for one last glimpse,
that holds me close, to the undeniable essence of you.
pain that surges through me, leaving me breathless, crippled and quiet,
of life in all its abundance, yet I stand paralysed in the quiet stillness.
existing, fighting, longing, for a peace to conquer the absence, disconnection
So for today
I will hold myself in the only way a parent can, and just for a moment I will
silence the debilitating ache with gently closed eyes and remember that love still
exists and is timeless.