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Newbie
Hi :) I joined today because I have only just been diagnosed with breast cancer and feeling very anxious....also because it is my birthday today! That fact just made me cry for most of today. I am fast realising how incredibly overwhelming the information is to take in, and the 'well meaning' support of friends and family…
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Secondaries
I am dealing with secondaries...I'm not going to lie to you it is shit! planning your own funeral...crap! Telling your kids you won't see them grow up! totally, utterly gut wrenching crap! Dealing with the fact that cancer is going to kill me! utterly, completely CRAP! People telling me I should just stay positive "wanting…
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New Year Greetings to all
2013 here I come - positive thoughts and expecting good things for the future. After 2.5 years I am struggling most of the time but facing the problems and being creative with my life. Sure I am physically no longer as I was however my spirit is not broken just shaken at times. I constantly look for laughter and joy in my…
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reflection & where to now?
Hello my fellow pink sisters! I hope you are all smiling and laughing- well as much as you can be! Its been a long time so I am going to write a long blog today so apologies! I finally finished 12 months of herceptin 6 weeks ago! yay!!!!!!!! but im back there next week to get my port flushed! bbooooo! how long did people…
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Just felt like blogging...
Today I'm having a blue day...feeling very much alone on this journey :-(. I am yet to meet anyone like me (a young 44 yr old) in Adelaide with secondary BC. And while this is a good thing (hopefully there aren't too many of us around in Adelaide), it saddens me to know that at the moment I am on this journey 'alone'.…
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my doctors and secretaries, all are very busy
I am under public system since last Tuesday or something. I still have same doctors (breast and plastic surgeon) but appointment with breast surgeon is now impossible. Her secretary told me she'd try to get one for me yesterday when I sobbed and told her that I did not have enough technical information about my case to…
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Just diagnosed
Today is Friday 3 August 2012. At 5.15pm I received news my breast biopsy has been diagnosed as cancer. Can't see my GP until Monday. Feeling isolated.
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Emotional wreck?
Today I presented a talk on BCNA for a luncheon group of 80+ people at a self funded retiree complex. I hadn't given a talk in the past few months, so prior to the event I had gone over and adjusted my talk, added more info on older women, and was happy. I gave my talk and had very good feedback, even an invitation to talk…
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Final breath
Dear All, My beautiful mum passed away yesterday morning. She'd been in hospital for the past 2 weeks and in a deep coma for the last 2 days. I was by her side constantly, day and night. The hardest part was to watch and listen to the breathing (the 'death rattle' so they say) - but I held her until the end. She waited…
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Day 5 blues
First blog here and really just wanted somewhere to write down that I am feeling quite sad today. Day 5 post chemo (I think this happenend last time too) and I just want to have a good cry and feel sorry for myself for a bit. I feel sad for my kids because it is such a beautiful day outside and all I want to do is go…
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A patient for Lucy Van Pelt
There was nothing romantic about this cancer. Utterly arbitrary, it didn’t have a narrative. It was just blank-faced and dutiful, a civil servant among diseases. So I went deep into some glum pop music and constructed what stories I could there." Giles Smith, Lost in Music. Shortly before I left Sydney (where I’d been…
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Prognosis Update
It's hard not to hate my oncologist. The cancer appears to have spread to my bones. We're waiting on test results to see if any other organs have been affected. Diagnosis: Advanced Inflammatory Breast Cancer It's incurable, but treatable. I'm confident that science will advance before it has a chance to put me to sleep…
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Never thought this would happen
Sunday 30th October 2011 This would have to be the hardest day of my life My mum sadly passed away and could not fight her 3 year battle with breast cancer anymore... I cant describe the feeling to see her there laying in the hospital bed knowing her heart is not beating and she is no longer alive. I layed next to her for…
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Rest in Peace Sarah Watt
I have just heard that Sarah Watt passed away on Friday after her battle. My thoughts and wishes are with her family at this time. Sarah was a wonderful filmaker, director and wife and mother. Rest in Peace Sarah.
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supportive friend
I have a friend who is having breast enlargement surgery today. I think she is very silly and it has made me think about young women and there attitude towards body perfection. Before i had my mastectomies i used to always wear a push up bra and revealing clothes. I proudly wore a bikini to the beach, i loved my body. I…