Night Howls

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  • arpie
    arpie Member Posts: 8,111
    hahaha Glad he got it in!!  Not sure I could do that Brenda!!  You are a real GEM!  :)   

    I had a sort of 'twilight night' last night - didn't really sleep at all .... just dozed!  Very annoying.   Yawning a bit now!  Quite a bit!
  • kmakm
    kmakm Member Posts: 7,974
    Awake four times, twice from hot flushes, once at 0445 by daughter leaving for camp and once by an incorrect alarm which I've now fixed...
  • JJ70
    JJ70 Member Posts: 983
    edited December 2018
  • JJ70
    JJ70 Member Posts: 983
    Looks like there was not much sleep among the Howlers last night...are we in sync or something? Come on...fess up, who slept well last night?
  • Flaneuse
    Flaneuse Member Posts: 899
    @Brenda5 You know how to have dramatic nights!
    We had a power blackout here last night from about 8:30 until nearly 11 pm. Candles and lamp out. It was stinking hot. I put iced water-soaked washer on the back of my neck and ice packs on my aching knee and ankle. That helped cool me a bit, without fans or aircon. No wifi of course and I didn't want to use data on 4G so it was a matter of just sit and think. Of course a lot of that thinking was about my appointment today with the surgeon, to have re-inflation of expander after radiation - and all the questions I have to ask. I'm anxious about that because last time all I got was "We'll just have to wait and see. You need to be patient." GGRRRR.
    I eventually slept but had another nightmare - which is becoming a regular occurrence.
  • kmakm
    kmakm Member Posts: 7,974
    @Flaneuse Good luck with the appointment Fran. I hope all your answers are satisfactory!
  • Sister
    Sister Member Posts: 4,961
    Temazepam for me last night 

    @Brenda5 Lucky you have pythons. All Browns and Red-bellied Blacks at mine.
  • Doin'it
    Doin'it Member Posts: 377
    @Sarnicad I started  Letrozole same day as Rads. 4 weeks later I’m going fine touch wood. Eek, hope I haven’t spoken too soon 
  • kmakm
    kmakm Member Posts: 7,974
    Look, at the risk of repeating myself and boring the socks off everyone, I'm here to have a rant/vent.

    I'm farking PISSED OFF. As it's after midnight, today is the one year anniversary of my diagnosis. I'm lying here starkers with the doona off, sweat gathering in every crease, because I'm having the fourth nuclear grade hot flush of the last ninety minutes. I've had to take a Targin to cope with the pain in my joints, I've sprayed magnesium on my ankles, swallowed a glass full of fibre additive to help with the cholesterol raising properties of the AI, and in front of me is a night of repeated waking and probably bad dreams. GARRGHH!

    A year and a day ago I had NO pain except a sore lower back from a bulging disc caused by a big baby. And I managed that pretty well with regular walking.

    It's been a derailing disaster of a year. Another one. I dread what the next year will bring.

    I know, I know, I'm alive, healthy (though it doesn't bloody feel like it), clothed, housed and fed. But bloody hell I'm pissed off. I'm in permanent pain, depressed and anxious. And tonight I'm very cross and grumpy about it. F**k cancer!

    Goodnight and I hope you sleep well. Hurrrumph...
  • SoldierCrab
    SoldierCrab Member Posts: 3,429
    I hear you kmakm, Tonight I'm angry at Fracking Cancer . Lost one this morning and another told Chemo aint working no more ! Today Tuesday need to put on my happy face As I host the local BC Support Group Christmas Luncheon. Instead I want to punch the stuffing out of Cancer. All I want for Christmas ~ Is a Cure or vaccine to Stop Cancer! Maybe a vaccine to return to Pre chemo health. No Aches No Hot flushes, and denial of our mortality. May a cool wind bring peace and sleep. Soldier crab :/:(:|
  • Sister
    Sister Member Posts: 4,961
    @kmakm and @SoldierCrab I wish I could give you both a hug.  Not that it would make any difference.  Cancer is shit!!  It fucks with our bodies and our minds, as do the treatments for it.  My condolences soldiercrab, on the death of your friend. 
  • SoldierCrab
    SoldierCrab Member Posts: 3,429
    Thanks Sister it is a hard one but we are warriors who pick ourselves up dust ourselves off and keep going.... 

  • kmakm
    kmakm Member Posts: 7,974
    So sorry about your friend @SoldierCrab. Sucks so much. Big hug. K xox
  • arpie
    arpie Member Posts: 8,111
    SO sorry about your friends, @SoldierCrab .... you are carrying more burdens than a lot of us.   Big hugs from  me  xxx  

    Yes, it's a really bitch, @kmakm ..... I was  hoping you'd be feeling a bit better by now, after stopping the Letrozole!   :(   Time for those big girl pants, methinks! xxxx