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Zelda12
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1 year ago

Today's feelings in poetry

Lucky 

So lucky, people say.


That they caught it when they did

That it hasn’t spread

That they got it all

That I have insurance


So, so lucky.


That my friend told me about her cancer

That I finally moved my arse and 

Went and had that mammogram

That I live in the lucky country


So lucky 


That my prognosis is good

That my job will be there for me 

That I am surrounded by family and friends

With their love, soup and casseroles.


Lucky. 


That my new set are perkier 

Smaller, Scar-rier, numb-ier.

A bit lopsided

Like me.  


Some days though,

I just feel 

A tiny bit

Unlucky. 


5 Replies

  • About sums it up for a lot of us. I know others are not as lucky, but then there’s others who are luckier. Everything is relative and I don’t think we can or should compare. I think we should be able to voice when we don’t feel ok, and when it gets a bit too much from ptsd, long-lasting bad side effects, fatigue, uncertainty etc, even if we might look ok from the outside and things seem to be going well.  A struggle is a struggle and very uncomfortable, so let’s normalise being able to say guilt-free that on some days, I’m not ok. 
    💜
    • FlatNina's avatar
      FlatNina
      Member

      When going through a difficult patch of breast cancer treatment while supporting my Father through palliative care, a neighbour asked “how things were going.” I replied, “it could always be worse.”

      Unexpectedly she replied “it could always be better!”

      I laughed and laughed. 😂 That comment really was a tonic.

  • I think that's it exactly @Spursy - when so many are nowhere near as lucky it's hard to say that on some days it really is still is a bit shit and I'm finding things hard/painful/sore/distressing etc without feeling guilty about others so much worse off.

  • I know what you mean. Days of depression. 
    I see worse off than me so I  have nout to complain about.