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Today's feelings in poetry
Lucky
So lucky, people say.
That they caught it when they did
That it hasn’t spread
That they got it all
That I have insurance
So, so lucky.
That my friend told me about her cancer
That I finally moved my arse and
Went and had that mammogram
That I live in the lucky country
So lucky
That my prognosis is good
That my job will be there for me
That I am surrounded by family and friends
With their love, soup and casseroles.
Lucky.
That my new set are perkier
Smaller, Scar-rier, numb-ier.
A bit lopsided
Like me.
Some days though,
I just feel
A tiny bit
Unlucky.
5 Replies
- I needed this today, exactly how I feel.
- About sums it up for a lot of us. I know others are not as lucky, but then there’s others who are luckier. Everything is relative and I don’t think we can or should compare. I think we should be able to voice when we don’t feel ok, and when it gets a bit too much from ptsd, long-lasting bad side effects, fatigue, uncertainty etc, even if we might look ok from the outside and things seem to be going well. A struggle is a struggle and very uncomfortable, so let’s normalise being able to say guilt-free that on some days, I’m not ok.💜
When going through a difficult patch of breast cancer treatment while supporting my Father through palliative care, a neighbour asked “how things were going.” I replied, “it could always be worse.”
Unexpectedly she replied “it could always be better!”
I laughed and laughed. 😂 That comment really was a tonic.
- I think that's it exactly @Spursy - when so many are nowhere near as lucky it's hard to say that on some days it really is still is a bit shit and I'm finding things hard/painful/sore/distressing etc without feeling guilty about others so much worse off.
- I know what you mean. Days of depression.
I see worse off than me so I have nout to complain about.
