I don't know if I had the anger one. I had frustration, indignation, a total lack of empathy for others to the point I felt I could stab anyone to death and not feel anything. I also had a short period of suicide thoughts in the frustration stage. I sought help. It did all pass, you just have to be patient during this shuffle in to the new you.
@Sister I so get that feeling. It is my constant companion. For most of my life. Itchy feet at best, fight or flight response at worst, I want to run away most of the time.
Me too! As soon as my Herceptin treatment is over I want to get out of here. I know it sounds silly, but I equate living here to my cancer so I want to leave it behind and move on.
@Zoffiel My father-in-law sometimes teases me about not coming home when I go out. He says (in a thick Belfast accent) "don't be running away with no sailor". And I say "If I'm running away Harry I'll be running away on my own!"
Not sure that remorse is in her makeup but we are back on an even keel for now. My manager must have been concerned about me yesterday as she was quite happy for me to put my headphones on at the desk and "test" a Baroque CD (Baroque music is supposed to be soothing and mentally clarifying!).
I had a huge rant at my boss yesterday morning. Walked into a total mess at work that other people couldn’t finish cause they were “busy” or “ran out of time” - so what everyone else does and stay later to get it done - don’t leave your job for someone else to do. Told her if I have to keep dealing with this I’ll quit!!!
Comments
I live on my own so can't imagine how leaving would help, but I have an urge to do it anyway.
If I leave me, can I come too?
Found this article and the comments on mood and seratonin interesting. Explains my moods and why I feel so much more apathetic now.
Have a good weekend, @sister ... can you get out on your SUP??