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Take time to BREATHE......
REST, RECOVER, RESTORE. OK, I'm over last week's sooky la la rant....It's so silly how your emotions get tipped over the edge.....a toenail? Arrgh! After much reassurance from my family, I have come to realise something....While the loss of my toenail (and looks like possibly more are going to come off! :/ ) was seen as…
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Pre-cancerous changes
On Thursday I had an appointment with a gynaecologist which should have been nothing to worry about. As she commenced her examination though she immediately began questioning me about an area she could see that had some skin changes. While she was quick to reassure me that it was not cancer she did say that it could be…
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Funny rant for today
So I went to a new fitness class this morning which was called "gentle exercise" and is generally aimed at older people or people with beginner level fitness. It's the first outing I've had wearing a head scarf and we all got talking about breast cancer and chemo. Everyone was really lovely except this one grumpy old lady.…
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Feeling pretty crappy today
Today I just need to vent. I have had a really bad month with non cancer stuff. I have been off work since Sept 12 after collapsing at work a few times. I also had to stop going to the gym because my blood pressure which used to be very high but was controlled with 2 types of meds is now really low causing me to pass out a…
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Buckets and Stress
I read somewhere (probably on here) that after you go through a diagnosis and prolonged treatment for breast cancer (and it would be the same for any serious illness or life changing event I would think) that your “bucket” for stress is always about 70% full (or maybe it’s only 30% of the size it was before bc). This…
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We are whole
My daughter just tagged me in this video .... I found it emotional but good emotions... https://www.facebook.com/buzzfeedladylike/videos/1858808131072078/?hc_ref=NEWSFEED
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Crying the whole day
Just wanted to vent out my emotions. Been crying the whole day & I know its not healthy. I have so much regret that I got this bc & I feel like all our dreams are shattered. We have so much plans (me & my husband) & today, all of those plans came into my mind one by one & I just cried & got so depressed. I am still in the…
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Is this as good as it gets?
Hello, I hope everyone is travelling well. It's been 2 weeks since I started taking Tamoxifen , seems to be ok. I'm still having counselling which is good but today I'm emotional and upset. This just overwhelms me and I try to motivate myself from wanting to just sit and stare out the window. It sucks. i have so much to be…
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Life returns to new normal?
Where has the last 12 weeks gone? So much has happened but it is invisible to others. I am back to work tomorrow and am looking forward to it but anxious as well. I put off my return to work 3 times but finally feel I am ready. I have no idea why I thought I would only be off work for a month!! I wasn't expecting so much…
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ONC VISIT
Tomorrow is my 2 monthly Oncologist visit & as usual I am beside myself with fear. Had my bloods taken 2.5 weeks ago & worried that my tm's have gone up again. Every little twinge sends me into a panic mode. Dear lord how are we supposed to cope with this ongoing rollercoaster of emotions that will never stop........ The…
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Meltdowns
Hi all, I guess I am posting this to vent and try and clear my head. When I thought I was getting through this and doing well, coping with the off days and getting back into work etc, I seem to be going backwards. I have had quiet a few meltdowns in the last couple of months. My wonderful friends have been there for me,…