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Cate64
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Have my next Onc visit tomorrow week, so nervous, I know my tm's were up last test & I am terrified to find out the next reading.. PLUS, I have to go alone..
Talk about sleepless nights & teary meltdowns!!.... Wish I knew what I did in a previous life to deserve the hand I have been dealt in this one........
Talk about sleepless nights & teary meltdowns!!.... Wish I knew what I did in a previous life to deserve the hand I have been dealt in this one........
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Sending hugs, @Cate64. You know you are never really alone with all of us here to listen anytime.
It really is a roller coaster for you. One minute on top of things and medals for your running! You are so impressive
and then the worry again. Do you have a counselor or someone professional to talk with? I can only imagine how difficult this all is and surely some support of this sort should be accessible for you.
Just picture all of your online support crew coming along with you next week. Hope there is room in the waiting room. xxx
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Thanks @Deanne I have tried their counselor but everytime I spoke with him & would wind up second guessing & questioning myself. I found I was better off with my rock of a husband who, at the time, could accompany to all appointments but he is now in a new job & not in a position to though, having said that, I think if he knew how anxious I get going alone he would 'be sick' that day.
Thank goodness for you girls & head slaps & big girl panties that I will now bring out
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Big hug from another metasisister zall the best B1
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@Cate64
Sometimes we do need to put on the big girl panties ...... but that doesn't stop us from feeling anxious... sending you hugs and energy to cope with the lead up to your appointment... I know you are strong you are here and that is testament to your strength. remember to tell the Onc to wait a bit there are quite a few of us to come in with you .... hugs and love
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Hey lovely Cate, Just think... Maybe.... your markers have gone down????? Visualise it, throw it out to the universe - that is what I am going to be doing on your behalf. And then, when you go to your appointment and take all of the lovelies here with you, also take this
and hold my hand whenever you need to!!! We are all with you. Bug bear hugs. Xx Cath7 -
Cate! Im so sorry, I know how terrorfying it is and I imagine alone too if youve always had someone go with you. Ive done all mine alone apart from one appt with the Oncologist my Partner came, but had nobody to ask and I didnt want the pressure of worrying about how they would cope with the appt. so I prefer it. Sending huge vibes for good results!!! Hang in there Sister!!! and I get you, you do wonder why this is all happening, what happened in a previous life uuugh. I think at different times throughout this whole thing there are moments that drive us, fire us up, break us, motivate us and change us. I think for so many reasons, its all these things that we learn along the way about ourselves, maybe thats the why...though I think sometimes things could be alittle less harsh!!! Step at a time! Hugs Melinda xo
I agree with Cath!! Keep saying it over and over out loud, the markers have gone DOWN!!!!5 -
Cate - can't imagine how you are feeling! Have you arranged for a different team yet? I think I read that in one of your other posts that is what you were considering. As said by others this online network we will be there trying to help you through the waiting room process and to breathe naturally and keep calm. Take care xx3
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Most places allow FACS days or even take a sick day to accompany a spouse to an appointment. He could even provide a medical certificate. Just think how he would feel knowing how stressed you are and haven't told him.1
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Hi are you going to a hospital for your check up. In most hospitals they have patient have patient advocates and volunters maybe someone like tht can go in with you
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Thank you all
Im still terrified & @primek yes my husband would come if I asked him but I dont like to let him know Im so terrified, I like to keep the brave face on for him & the boys, no point everyone being anxious.... @socoda I wish............ but I have an awful feeling about it..... & can they just bounce around up & down???
I am hoping the BC Nurse from Peter Macallum will ring this afternoon, I have reached out to her asking for help to change to a care team there.... I have no faith at all in TNH team... I dont like the blase, flippant way they treat me..0 -
Your appt's in Melbourne? If you can't get hold of a nurse let me know, perhaps I can help depending on when.....1
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