Anxious weekend ahead
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@Kat09 Big hugs. When the shock wears off, sending even bigger hugs.1
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Manageable is mainly a good word. Not the one we want but not bad either. I'm not in your situation, I can't pretend to know how it feels but I do have two lifelong side effects of cancer treatment. And both are manageable. They are an ever present part of my life but they don't rule it. They can be really irritating but not devastating. I can live my life. I don't know how long it will be, none of us do. But it's mine, it's there and I'm going to live every minute of it. My very best wishes for managing well.5
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@Kat09 I’m so sorry to hear this, I know exactly how you feel, your oncologist and yourself have your treatment plan, like mine not curable but treatable. I wish you well in your treatment for a long happy life like I’m looking forward to f..k cancer kick it to the curb big time, wishing you well x1
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Thanks to all of you for your support and kind words, starting my treatment on Sunday. Have a date at a nice restaurant tomorrow with my husband, planning on enjoying some nice food and wine before getting on with putting this monster in it's place! xoxoxox9
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What a good idea! I hope you have a scrumptious meal and a great evening. K xox1
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I'm so very sorry to hear this. I will be thinking of you. Sending you lots of hugs and love from the universe.
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Oh bugger Kat. My sister lived a long life with secondary bc and there are so many more options now for treatment.1
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@Kat09 my beautiful girl!!! I only saw this post now, like you I'm not around as much anymore, I'm sorry we havent spoken for awhile either
I've just caught up on the whole post and want to send you the BIGGEST hug and love, you amazing wonderful woman! I remember what you went through and I agree you are in fantastic hands with your Team. Another diagnosis is our worst nightmare and you know I did this at the 4yr mark and you do absolutely think how on earth am I going to do this??? somehow you find that fire in the belly to do what you need to do! It tests your every resolve, mentally, emotionally and physically.
What I do know about you though is, you are one hell of a resilient woman who will rise and with love and support one step at a time.
How did treatment go? how are you feeling?? you've got this sweet!!! Hugs M xoxo3 -
@melclarity as always your thoughts and love are expressed so beautifully xo. I have been really strong til I read your post with only a few private tears with my husband. I started Xeloda 1500mg twice daily on Sunday, so day 5 of 14 today and am feeling really well, that's the kicker right I'm so strong and healthy who knew a secondary cancer was lurking! I am continuing to work and needing that for my sanity, my work colleagues have been amazing and thankfully life continues as normal both there and at home. I guess the biggest part of getting sick is trying not to feel like you've let the people you love down, that's probably my biggest struggle. It is so hard telling them that you have an illness that is not curable, well not currently anyway! Each time I take these meds I feel that they are kicking this horrid disease in the arse. My oncologist doesn't believe she can make the cancer disappear and her hope is that it shrinks and continues to be contained, that is the lesser of my hopes , my biggest hope is showing her that we did make it disappear and hearing that word remission again!
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@Kat09 uuuugh I teared up reading yours! I just wanted to say I hear you and I feel you and that you have it all inside you to put one foot in front of the other and you know what?? if thats too hard somedays??? just STAND! nothing more because that's who you are.
I'm glad to hear you still working and I think that's a great idea for your sanity and to feel most like yourself. I understand that thought of feeling of letting your family down, but this is where we need to step back be kind and really love ourselves so much more. We didnt do this to ourselves and you're not letting your family down at all, they love you.
I say power to you!!! stuff remission sister!!! lets keep talking of it gone!!! Sounds like youre off to a good start with Xeloda, so keep going.
We are all here anytime you need talk, please PM anytime too! You have lots of support...biggest hugs! xoxo M2