Who else can't sleep?

@kmakm. It would feel very strange if u went to a b - hopefully he manages that c!! xoxoxoo

@"Kiwi Angel" I wanted to go back to my pre-babies size which was a D. However because of my comprimised abdomen I can't. The PS says to prepare myself for a good B and he'll try for a small C. I really hope it's the latter. I'd be a lot happier.

@kmakm u will feel very different!!  What size are u going to?  I am a c cup generally and there is so much nice lingerie out there. Have a fantastic night out with your hubby - it will do u the world of good. Xoxoxx

@"Kiwi Angel" Thank you Steph. I think I will take the girls out, my husband will certainly appreciate that! I've asked him to take me out on Saturday night so that'll be a good excuse. I'm going to miss my E cups. I'm worrying about how I'll adjust. All I do is pretty much worry and feel anxious these days! I am SO looking forward to not feeling like this anymore.

I'm having immediate reconstruction, I couldn't cope with waking up flat, it's just not for me.

On the silver linings front, I am definitely looking forward to the whole new world of lingerie shopping that will open up for me, having a smaller chest. Some fun shopping to be had now that I won't need so much structual support!

@kmakm - take the current ones out - that’s what I did before I lost one. Rocked some low cut tops. Went through my closet on the weekend to see what I might not be able to wear and with buying a white and a black bandeau too I can modify my wardrobe and only had to chuck out 2 things. Make sure to take the new ones out when u r all healed too. R u getting the reconstruction at the same time or just getting the prep for the reconstruction done?  With my single I didn’t find pain too bad and hardly needed any pain relief but u r getting a bigger procedure than me. Treatment does vary - my oncologist has me on higher dex for the nausea compared to what I read some other people have (not complaining though as I have had basically no nausea) and the Neulasta injection is one she does regularly - all the chemo nurses say lots of people end up in hospital apparently without it so I will suck up the 2 to 3 days of pain. Hopefully the panadine forte works better or she said she can prescribe me some endone if needed. I just have my berlei boob at the moment - keep worrying my kleptomaniac cat will steal it if I leave it in the wrong place. 

U will never know until after the fact how u will feel - I still find it off that the potential hair loss upsets me more than the boob loss but I still out that down to a privacy thing and I may feel differently down the track. U look after yourself and I hope u sleep better tonight. Exercise, cup of tea or wine and a good book. Big hugs xoxooxox

Thank you for your support @"Kiwi Angel". Take my current boobs out or the new ones?!

You sound very organised! I'm still curious about why your oncologist wants you to have the Neulasta injection. It's interesting how widely the treatments vary. I hope it's not too crap for you this time. And good luck with the shopping and swimming. How lovely! My mother has to go and get one too. She told me she lost hers a few weeks ago! Keeps hoping it'll turn up but so far it hasn't.

I'm confident in my doctors, and apart from some nervousness about the length of time I'll be 'under', I know that physically I should be OK. Don't know how I'll be mentally though, it's a big change that I can't truly understand until it happens though. Not looking forward to the pain but hey no pain no gain eh? K xox

@kmakm I’m not sleeping to bad despite the press this time and my tummy can be abit squidgy during the early hours of the morning but my surgery is all done so I don’t have the anxiety that I now have. I only had a simple single and no immediate plans or setting up for reconstruction and I found recovery quite. Obviously it will be harder for u with getting them both off at the same time but it sounds like your family is quite supportive. I’m going up to Myer today to purchase a swimming boob as they have some on discount apparently and I will book in to get fitted for my “everyday” boob - I still haven’t decided what I will do about reconstruction down the track - will get through all this first. Stupid Neulasta injection is starting to kick in so prepared to feel like crap tomorrow. I don’t blame u for being anxious about your surgery - it’s a huge thing but u strike me as a pretty tough and philosophical woman so I’m sure u got this and we are all here for u. Take those boobies out in some low cut tops and show them off. Xoxoxoxo Steph 

0130 and I can't get to sleep tonight. Mind is motoring at 100kph. I'm cutting my boobs off in eight days. I mean, what even is that? So weird to think about. Quiet brain! Down girl!

@arpie I'm with you ..........the flatter the pillow the better! I once went to one of those Wenatex mattress demonstrations where you get a free 3 course dinner   :) and was the guinea pig who got to test the mattress and I remember the saleswoman telling me that your head, naturally, only needs a little elevation . Peace and sleep to you ladies, goodnight!

@Finch I was like that last time but I think anxiety related so happy I slept better last night. Hope u get a better sleep tonight.