Hi everyone. 5 years ago today I had surgety for DCIS. 4 years and 9 month later I was diagnosed with early BC. Surgery, radiation, ovaries removed, Arimidex. The whole program. I feel physically fine but the emotional side is a different matter. I have great support and my husband is my rock. Here comes the kicker. Just before my diagnosis in November a close friend of ours went into hospital for cancer related back surgery. His wife has been my support person last time. One week later my father in law was diagnosed with lung cancer. Fast forward to now and our dear friend has passed away and my father in law is recieving palliative care with days to live. I am trying so hard to keep it together. My 2 biggest supporters are suffering and I feel I should be helping them. My wonderful husband has lost a friend, is losing his dad and is trying to help me. How much more can he take? How can I ease his pain?

@Justtoomuch The emotional roller coaster. Yep. I hear you. My hubby said “On any other woman I expect it. But not you.” I get so frustrated with myself and am constantly telling myself everything will settle down eventually and if not, I am just going to have to deal with it. Hang in there. Big hugs. Sometimes I give myself a hug to let me know I am worth it.

@Cathy_b1961 What a beautiful caring post! Best wishes with where you are at with treatment and lots of cuddles and talks with your golden labHugs

Oh wow, that's such a lot for you all to be going through. It's a wonder either of you are keeping it together. I'm no relationship expert, so my only suggestion is to be there for and with him. Let him know that whatever he's feeling is right for him at that moment. Grief is not neat, it's messy and doesn't follow a set path, although some would have us think it does.Glad you've found your way to us, you'll find lots of support here.Sending a barrel load of hugs your way

I feel you @Justtoomuch. I have had similar events in my life. In August 2015 my sister-in-law died from a brain tumour at 53. Our families were close, our kids grew up together, having family dinners every week, and I mean every week. Six weeks later my father-in-law moved in with us.Ten months later my sister died from breast cancer at 47. Six months later her two young children, 11 and 8, moved in with us. We spent a year renovating our home to accommodate the extra three people which has expanded our family to seven.17 months after my sister died I was diagnosed with breast cancer.It was, and is, just all too much. My reserves were gone by the time I was diagnosed. My one foot in front of the other way of proceeding evaporated. It's been incredibly hard to cope. But what can you do? I accept help, get counselling, come to grips with the fact that I'm not as strong and invincible as I once thought I was, keep loving my four children, try to keep my relationship with my husband going and plod on. I'm taking baby steps to rebuild my life. I'm trying to keep my health as good as possible. I'm crossing my fingers, hoping for the best and expecting the worst.The last few years have made me much better at staying present, focussing on the now. All I can say to you is strive to live one day at a time. No predictive grief, no crossing bridges until you come to them. Grieve your losses, but if you find yourself getting stuck in your grief, get some counselling. Get some counselling now. I sobbed and sobbed in the office of one I saw during treatment. She completely understood, and it was such a release to let the emotion out. You have to go through it to come out the other side.Hang in there my fellow traveller on this very rocky road. We have to believe that it will get better. K xox

It's all relevant, frustrating, emotional and everything in between. It's a rollercoaster that eventually we all hope to disembark and find some normality.There are various groups on the forum that are private and you may find beneficial. Please don't be too hard on yourself it does get betterTake care of you

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kmakm
Member
7 years ago
I feel you @Justtoomuch. I have had similar events in my life. In August 2015 my sister-in-law died from a brain tumour at 53. Our families were close, our kids grew up together, having family dinners every week, and I mean every week. Six weeks later my father-in-law moved in with us.

Ten months later my sister died from breast cancer at 47. Six months later her two young children, 11 and 8, moved in with us. We spent a year renovating our home to accommodate the extra three people which has expanded our family to seven.

17 months after my sister died I was diagnosed with breast cancer.

It was, and is, just all too much. My reserves were gone by the time I was diagnosed. My one foot in front of the other way of proceeding evaporated. It's been incredibly hard to cope. But what can you do? I accept help, get counselling, come to grips with the fact that I'm not as strong and invincible as I once thought I was, keep loving my four children, try to keep my relationship with my husband going and plod on. I'm taking baby steps to rebuild my life. I'm trying to keep my health as good as possible. I'm crossing my fingers, hoping for the best and expecting the worst.

The last few years have made me much better at staying present, focussing on the now. All I can say to you is strive to live one day at a time. No predictive grief, no crossing bridges until you come to them. Grieve your losses, but if you find yourself getting stuck in your grief, get some counselling. Get some counselling now. I sobbed and sobbed in the office of one I saw during treatment. She completely understood, and it was such a release to let the emotion out. You have to go through it to come out the other side.

Hang in there my fellow traveller on this very rocky road. We have to believe that it will get better. K xox
Giovanna_BCNA
Member
7 years ago
Hello @Justtoomuch
I am sorry to hear your news. Please dont hesitate to call our helpline on 1800 500 258 if you would like to speak with one of the cancer nurses for information and support. Take care of you
kindest regards
lrb_03
Member
7 years ago
Oh wow, that's such a lot for you all to be going through. It's a wonder either of you are keeping it together.
I'm no relationship expert, so my only suggestion is to be there for and with him. Let him know that whatever he's feeling is right for him at that moment. Grief is not neat, it's messy and doesn't follow a set path, although some would have us think it does.

Glad you've found your way to us, you'll find lots of support here.

Sending a barrel load of hugs your way

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