Confronting flashbacks

@sister I did. But I didn't need to, she could see it. She noticed my shaking and then, despite being dry eyed for days, my absolutely unbidden tears. She said I was having a panic attack and got me to do some deep breathing.

It was awful. I never think of myself as this frail! So I was taken by surprise as well. Why do I continue to be shocked by all of these reactions and side effects?! Thinking that they won't happen to me is so deluded and foolish. I am just as human as everyone else.

Thank you @iserbrown. I like that tactic, will give it a try. And yes, the commonality of the experiences here are a great comfort.

Time for a rare coffee I think. If it wasn't so early, I'd say a stiff drink...

I am still shaken by my visceral reaction. BC is a body and mind f**k.

Oh dear you sound like you've really got the "heebie jeebies".

I was put with a Counsellor prior to diagnosis at Breastscreen and her advice was whenever you start to feel overwhelmed start to pat yourself down, pat your legs and pat your arms and whilst you are doing this you are saying yes this is me and it is bringing you into the now and helping you to calm and breathe.

Wishing you well with the Counsellor and hopefully some restful thoughts will result after this visit or further visits.

Take care and remember everyone on here at some stage has felt similar

Tell her that it's happening.  I know what you mean though - I seem to have travelled the same path through the hospitals as my sister did many years ago.  It really shakes you up.