Whats going to happen next
as the heading states what next.
I want to be the mum I was before metastatic BC came along tonight I just want to find somewhere to roll up into a ball and cry with the unfairness of it all. If i could Just get life to stand still or at least for once be nice.
It seems the whole family is falling apart.
1st daughter is waiting for shoulder reconstruction she has in layman’s terms laxity of the joints already had a knee reconstruction this surgery Dr cant say its going to completely successful
2nd daughter is having major health issues (she has chrons disease, a heart problem plus other complicated health problems all of which are acting up at the same time. She carries a letter for emergency so they don’t have to ask so many questions
My Only Son is now on short list for surgery for a shoulder that’s hanging on by a thread of just 1 tendon. ( came off his bike). His wife got admitted to hospital yesterday with several Kidney stones that are not going to pass so she’s in there waiting for a stent then follow up surgery to have them blasted.
I’m back on my palbociclib and trying to adjust to the side effects again after such a long break. To top it off I have a new lump on a different rib which wasn’t painful before but now is hot to touch and radiating pain around it. Oncologist had a feel and immediately wrote up a referral for a bone scan asap and I am still trying to recover from the GB surgery
Its a bit of where do I go, how do I spread myself around to them all, I want to divide myself into pieces so I can help them all.
then my body reminds me I’m not 100% fit either.
