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Sydney-31
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11 years ago

emotion is going through hell

I was diagnosed to have early stage cancer Mid 14 August 2014.

Then I had 2 surgeries so far, and I'm seeing the specialist next monday for post sugery follow-up. So I don't know my following treatments yet.

After my first surgery, I was actually happy as the cancer hasn't travel to my lymph nodes and little knowledge with breast cancer.  I bomb fed my brain with breast cancer knoweledge in the last 2 days, and cried over every minute. I felt reluctant to die and missed my parents.

My husband and brother didn't understand why I cried over and over again, as they thought it's still early stage cancer and treatable.  But as far as I know, it's still can be fatal. I felt sad, depresed, and hopeless. ( I believe many of you have gone through this.)

I got married last year, and was thinking about having kinds next year. my husband and I went to GP to have a body checkup. I also requested to have an breast ultrasound. Then the result came back with a shock, followed up with lightening-fast surgeries.

Currently I'm going on a roller coaster with emotions.  I don't know how long I will live and couldn not stop tears once thinking about how devastated it will be to my parents if I die.

I'm so sad and scared ath the moment

  • Well its Monday today, so hopefully not too long till you get your news. All that the ladies are saying is exactly how it is, sooner or later we all have a meltdown of some description. It would be more worrying if we diodn't considering the events happening in your life.

    For me I dealt with it just one step at a time, when I looked at the complete picture it was overwhelming.

    Take care and stay intouch.

    Donna

  • Sorry to hear you are overwhelmed at the moment, it's a hard thing to deal with. Definitely a roller coaster of emotions. Summer is right when she says breast cancer is one of the most treatable. That may not seem such a comfort but they are doing some wonderful things treating breast cancer these days. I also did a lot of reading and research, it can get you down. I am 5 months post treatment and feeling pretty darn good, I now have what I refer to as my 'cancer box'. I got sick of leaving cancer booklets all over the house, it was a constant reminder I didn't need. My best advice to you is to take 'one day at a time', it can be daunting looking too far down the track. I wish you all the very best for your results and whatever treatment you may need. Keep your chin up, sending big cyber hugso you, 

    Hazel xx

  • Hi Sydney-31 and others reading this

    Like you I was diagnosed (through Breastscreen) in August 2014 and went in for a mastectomy.  I have had three surgeries and am waiting for my pathology report this Tuesday.

    I am fortunate that my husband has attended appointments with me so he heard the Breast Care Nurse say it is normal to have a spack attack - and she worries if people don't cry over the diagnosis and during treatment.

    When in the Imaging Dept waiting for the radioactive dye to work the technician said "you are lucky to get breast cancer as it is the treatable one".

    Prior to my hospitalisation I made myself an affirmation.  I tried to be 'in the future' and definite.  It is "I am strong.  I am positive.  I am proud".  This has helped me to get through - I typed it up on pretty paper and it was hanging in my hospital room (now in the loungeroom).  I find when my eyes well up I recite the affirmation and it passes.

    My advice is to give yourself a rest from reading about it all.  You, like me and all the others, get 'information overload' at the beginning.

    Take time out for YOU, relax, treat yourself and make yourself an affirmation to help lessen the emotional turmoil.

    Hope this helps

    Summer

  • What you are feeling is normal,when you first find out that you have breast cancer.But what you need to know,is that you are going to be OKAY!!!! You are not going to die,and I am pretty certain that you are going to have your treatment,then go on to live a long ,healthy life.Breast cancer these days is so treatable,especially when it hasn't spread to the lymph nodes,and you have done a good thing by posting on this blog.Other ladies will reply to you over the next couple of days,and give you hope,just as I am trying to do.I was diagnosed with breast cancer one year ago.I feel really well now,as most ladies on here do.Stay on this blog,as you will get so much help and support here. Whenever you feel scared just come on here,and someone will support you.I think that you will find,that once you have seen the surgeon for post surgery followup, you will start to feel more in control. Try not to worry so much and stay in touch.CheersxoxRobyn
  • I am so sorry to hear that you are going going through such an overwhelming time. You mentioned that you have an appointment with the surgeon on Monday...that is when you will get a more conclusive pathology report. Knowing what you are dealing with and the treatment you will have will hopefully have a settling effect. I know it is hard ..I felt the same. But remember that everyone is unique...your pathology, grade, stage of lesion in your breast is UNIQUE to you. There are so many wonderful outcomes and cure for breast cancer. Good luck on Monday. Let us know how it went. Lots of hugs.xx