Hi allSince chemo has begun, i feel life is different. Im anxious alot fearing what is going to happen next. I havent been going out and just feeling blah. Today whilst feeling like that a friend turned up. I cried on her shoulder and she gave me a canvas with never give up on it. I felt much better and she is going to come over and start walking with me.. tomorrow is a new day.. hugs to all of you going through this awful experience Xxxx Trikki2

Hey @Trikki2,Absolutely normal. Hopefully you can relax a bit as treatment goes on. I found that once I got into a routine of knowing the cycle of the treatment and realised that I could still function quite ok on most days the stress lessened and you become a bit more chilled about it. Just another day at the office so to speak.I found keeping as busy as I physically could was really useful and distracted my brain from constantly thinking about treatment and BC.I also took a lot of photos of anything fun we did along the way. Days out, beautiful sunrises, parties, family trips etc. That way when you look back you can see all the good things you did in amongst the not so good. This was really beneficial. Instead of just looking back and going well that was a shit time. I could see how many good days were in there. Made me feel better about it and it gives you a good sense of strength when you can reflect on "Hey, look at everything I did while going through that"Every body deals with things in different ways. You'll find your groove lovely.Keep on poking along and the end will appear sooner than you think.All the best xoxoxox

Hi Trikki2,I was lucky enough to escape chemo and have only had to cope with radiation and Tamoxifen. I'm sure every one of us here though can relate to your feelings of anxiety and fear. It's great that your friend was able to support you and help you feel better. No matter how great our family and friends are though, nobody understands our anxieties like we understand each other. For a long time, after diagnosis, I would read these messages without contributing and would take comfort that so many others were going g through the same experiences, fears and anxieties as me. It really was, and still is a great comfort to k ow there are others that totally understand how we feel. Take care, take each day as it comes and try to have something little to look forward to each day, whether it be a little walk or a visit from a friend.Michele xx

@Trikki2 I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling anxious. I experienced this during chemo (and continue to have it now). I was diagnosed with anxiety at that time and my psychologist says it's very common in a diagnosis of breast cancer, as is depression. So you are very 'normal' as far as I'm concerned!What a lovely friend you have! So, note to self, when I am feeling blah and weepy, reach out to a friend. Yes? Very good idea to have an exercise companion too. Would it be possible to lock in a few more mates to walk with you?If you're into meditating or relaxation exercises, now would be a good time to do some. It's very good for anxiety. I use an app on my phone (Headspace) that has a programme especially for anxiety, and another for cancer.Life is different, and we have lost the certainty we had before. The future is always unknown but a major illness shakes our foundations. We will adjust. I mean, what choice do we have?!Hang in there love. Chemo is tough. But you'll deepen your understanding of yourself and feel very loved and cherished. Keep slogging, one foot in front of the other. Big hug, Kate xox

Kate you are such a beautiful person who has obviously learnt alot through your cancer journey. I have had depression and anxiety for a long time and have to come off my tablets for surgical reasons. I will check out headspace. I love alternative therapy. I probably can get others to join me. I just have to make that step out.Thanks lovely for all your support Xxx trace

Hey @kezmusc such lovely ideas.. today is a new day and the sun is shining xxTrikki2

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AllyJay
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8 years ago
Hi there @arpie , I used to love fishing, but now, with all my balance issues and peripheral neuropathy, baiting a hook, or tying knits in fishing line, would probably end in perforated fingers, perforated eardrums of nearby innocent folks (from the loud profanities) and me in the water. So for the foreseeable future, the bream, tailor and flatties are probably safe from my predations. For me my knitting is my peace and my sanity. Knit one purl one..blah blah..click, click, rhythm and predictability. If I follow the pattern, stitch by stitch and row by row, a ball of essentially string and two pointy sticks can make something unique. There are no nasty surprises, no deadly nasties. No f**ked up consequences or as they say these days "outcomes". The worst that can happen, is that you have to redo a row or two, and how easy is that?
arpie
Member
8 years ago
Hey, @AllyJay .... do you know anyone that loves playing Piano?? Check out THIS home knitted jumper!

Absolutely Fabulous!!! (Hmmm ... now where have I heard THAT phrase before?? LOL)

I just have NO patience for knitting .... but can do 6hrs straight, fishing, no worries! ;)
Trikki2
Member
8 years ago
Im new to knitting @AllyJay. But i love yours. Mine will just become something long lol xxx
Trikki2
Trikki2
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8 years ago
Love love love @AllyJay
AllyJay
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8 years ago
AllyJay
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8 years ago
Hi there @Trikki2 ...sorry for the delay in joining the thread...was on granny duties and just got home again. I'm also known as The Nutty Knitter and here is a partially completed hat...I'll bet you have no idea what it will say when completed...
Sarnicad
Member
8 years ago
Yes the standards we hold ourselves to but give everyone else leeway on!

today I gave in and got my cleaners to fold washing and sort socks just so I can stand the sight of our house that had descended into chaos (more than normal) while I was in hospital. Would I tell others to do that - yep but me ha ha ha no
kmakm
Member
8 years ago
@Trikki2 Totally ridonculous. I actually feel like I'm getting somewhere on this front. We'll see if it sticks... K xox
Trikki2
Member
8 years ago
@kmakm omg ridiculous isnt it. So hard to retrain. Im learning patience for me. Im so good at patience for everyone else x
kmakm
Member
8 years ago
Me too @Trikki2. Internally I hold myself to standards that no one else even comes close to. That nasty little voice in my head... Oi! So absurd.

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