Dear@Sidney
Everyone who has been diagnosed experiences this fear, to a greater or lesser extent. It’s pretty natural. The first diagnosis is invariably a shock, irrespective of whether you are at a particularly high risk or not, and bangs home the message that you are not the one who is never going to get cancer! So if once, why not twice? You have been through the recommended treatment, unpleasant as it is and you did that to have a life. Living in fear is a half life at best. It does get easier to let the fear go as you end treatment and time passes, but you can help it along by addressing what you fear most with a professional counsellor. Many people have found talking to a stranger invaluable - even for a short time. The mind gets bashed around as much as the body in this game, and some sorting out can help get your balance back. My day oncology staff made a terrific recommendation for a counsellor experienced with cancer patients. Best wishes.
