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Confronting flashbacks
I've just arrived to see my counsellor. Where I normally see her is really busy so I've been sent two doors up to the Breast Screen clinic where I had my mammograms, ultrasound and biopsy.
And of all the rooms she could be in, she's in the very room where I got my diagnosis.
I haven't been here since that day. I'm having awful flashbacks. This is horrible.
*pulls up big girl undies*
And of all the rooms she could be in, she's in the very room where I got my diagnosis.
I haven't been here since that day. I'm having awful flashbacks. This is horrible.
*pulls up big girl undies*
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- Thank you @Primek. I was shocked by the strength of my reaction. Good words about avoidance. I'm not really one for doing that but after today I'd be tempted. My counsellor gave me a lot to think about today. I've got 'stuff' to process. Thank you so much for your support, I really appreciate it.
- I had at a pts moment when if all things they were selling pink merchanise in October. I recalled being there in my scarf and needing to sit every 50 feet from exhaustion the year before. These things creep up on you. Just breathe and ride the wave of emotion. Avoiding situations just leads to more avoidance. Good you could talk through it with a counsellor. Never feel embarrassed or ashamed for reliving the emotion. Acknowledging it will help you heal. X
- Thank you @iserbrown. I am set to commence a highly recommended exercise physiology programme on the 4th June. Exercise & education. If I feel like more after that, and I may, I'll check it out. I clicked on the link and I think one of their sites is doable for me.
- @kmakm
What part of Melbourne are you from? Are you still in treatment? There's a program called Ex-Med Cancer, link,
http://www.exmedcancer.org.au/
that you may find beneficial in helping get you back on your way................just a thought! - Thank you @Joannie & @Zoffiel. Kindness sets me off too. And I've been wondering about that horn...
Sometimes just being with people who will persist in being kind to me will set me off.
Growing a sudden crop of blue warts, or a horn in the middle of your forehead are abnormal things to do. Tears, well, our bodies may have some obvious design faults, but essentially all the bits and pieces serve a function--including tears. It's normal. Inconvenient and occasionally embarrassing, but so is farting and it's sometimes our bodes are beyond our control. Bottling these feelings up isn't helpful and having cancer treatment is certainly a good reason top get an attack of the sniveling vapours. Erk. A good howl does do a great deal of good on occasions. The trick is learning how to stop.
- Still shaking, you're all helping, bless you <3
- I've surprised/disgusted myself with the amount of times I have gotten teary with no good reason. Just not me. Did it yesterday in the chemo room and can't even remember what brought it on. You're not alone.
- Awesome - you're on your way to being in control! Perhaps a good coffee or is it "Time for Tea", whichever option will certainly help.
Take some time to reflect but as the saying goes:
