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Take back my life song
I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed of late. Eight months of surgery, chemo, radio then hormone blockers - aint they a treat?!? Just loving the hot flushes! Months where my life was driven by setting goals - make it through that next chemo, the next appointment, just another week of radio. Now I'm in that no-mans land in…
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I feel like a fraud...
I was diagnosed on Friday with an Invasive Ductal Carcinoma in my right breast. I am in shock. It is small and they have found it early which is all positive. But why do I feel so bad and scared. I feel like I am being told that it is small, it will be dealt with quickly, most women survive, I've got nothing to worry…
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Frustrated
It is bad enough trying to cope with diagnosis, feeling unwell, only having limited capacity to walk and still maintain some kind of family life, but I would just like a doctor in my court fighting for my wellbeing. First it was the public/private division. I was channeled into private last time before I knew that it…
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My Dream fading
I have recently been been told I have breast cancer in my left breast. I was hard to process the news, I clinged on to my daughters had as the tears fell. The first thought was I will not be there for my child and grand children. I will not fufill my childhood dream to visit and sing in Nashville USA. My dream was…
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Post surgery
Well it didn't really hit me until I was being admitted and a lovey nurse in a hot pink blouse said hi I'm Kim your beast care nurse. A blur later I'm sitting up the day after surgery enjoying a cup of tea (sort of ) the anesthetic knocked me around and I had a rough day yesterday. I remember crying in recovery as the…
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Total newbie and totally scared.
11 Jan..... I was diagnosed Nov 17, 2015 and a mastectomy a week later and on Jan 7th started my first chemo - Docetaxel & Cyclophosphamide. Nasty, nasty stuff. Five days since the first chemo - I can honestly say I've felt better! Loss of taste (crying), nausea, diarrhoea (oh joy) as well as aching bones/muscles, unable…
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Two more sleeps
Two more sleeps until my surgery, Well I haven't really slept, just hourly doses between dreaming and waking up wondering around the house at all hours. I've tried my hardest to push it to the back of my mind, but when you sleep the sub conscious comes alive....Weird ass dreams, that I tend to take real notice of, as I am…