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Not What we wanted to hear
Hi all, It's been a while since I last posted. I started 6 months of chemo on April 30. I am about to have a mastectomy Tuesday Oct 22, 2013. After cycles of FEC and Docetaxel, it appears they didn't do what we expected. Minimal change to the tumour - but it also spread to the liver. Oh dear! I started the monthly…
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birthday
Hi all, Its my daughters 8th birthday this weekend. Usually for me its a happy time. This year is my first with ABC. Now its a scary time with me wondering if I will see her grow up. I feel I will fail her if i dont as I know I mean the world to her. I am trying to not let my fears ruin it for me but I am having a hard…
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Acceptance
It has come to be in the past week that I need to accept decline. I, once again am faced with a choice. To live in sadness at what is happening to me or cherish the moments I have. The decline in my quality of life in a short time is difficult to accept. I have lived with this disease for 2 1/2 years with minimal, though…
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Everything and Nothing.
I last spoke about loss. Losing friends is difficult. Losing them to a disease that you have yourself is difficult in a different way - there isn't the consolation of "time healing" - instead there is ticking. The ticking is always there - some days excrutiatingly loud and thumping, others just soft enough to intrude the…
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Come a long way.
I've just reread my one and only post, and my word, it feels like a long time ago. It seems like a whole life has gone past in the last nine months. The panic attacks lessened after the initial shock. Then the six sessions of chemo were the hardest thing I've ever been through. A mastectomy, followed by eight weeks of an…
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Way forward
HI All I went to the oncologist yesterday and am happy to report he is going to admit me to hospital asap and start chemotherapy. I am just so glad that he is looking at various treatments to try to contain and shrink the cancers... I suppose that is all one can hope for! Next hurdle will be that the chemo works... I felt…
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freakin out
Hi, I have read some comments that have scared me and I have questions that I am hopeing can put my mind at ease at least until I see my onc. I am being treated pre op, the tumour is shrinking does this mean that I am unlikely to get secondary cancer? That the treatment is working for me and won't spread? I have read some…
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Anniversary today!
This morning I awoke to my mobile phone alarm, playing an upbeat tune with the words "Happy Halloween..3 years cancer-free..congratulations!" flashing on the screen. Today I was diagnosed with early breast cancer 3 years ago. Little did I know on that day that I'd be facing a second diagnosis, almost to the exact day 3…
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the plan to get over the hurdle
Hi wonderful ladies Firstly let me thank you all so much for your messages of support. I haven't been able to reply individually but know they are gold to me. Devastated, shell shocked, angry, frightened, sad, desperate, hopeful, empty, bereft... there are so many words to describe the gamut of emotions I have been through…
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Next Meeting 2nd August.
Next meeting will be on Monday 2nd August at the Murwillumbah Bowls Club as a trial for an ongoing venue. "Cutting The Ties That Bind" is the topic for discussion. Tricia Mccormick will look at strategies that may help managing stress especially when it is other peoples stress that impacts on one's self. Lianne.