Second AC, don’t know if I can hack this

The user and all related content has been deleted.

Something else that’s good and my phycologist suggested doing this - is so all that you can to be kind to yourself . Write a list of things that make you happy.

for me I love being outside, so something as simple is having dinner outside with my family even when feeling crap makes Be feel a little normal and happy.

xx

@Spillsy ac is awful. This whole thing is awful. I had moments of I can’t do this aswell. Social life and even spending time with Kids and family is like it’s on hold while undergoing chemo

i don’t no if it helps you but the one thing that got me through when I felt like that was asking myself what the alternative was. And we don’t want that - it would give me the inspiration to keep fighting and no that there is light at the end of the tunnel .

things will get better!

@Spillsy If you can't fall apart sometimes when you're going through breast cancer treatment, when will you be able to fall apart?  Just as long as you don't let yourself fall into a longer term depression.  I don't know how old your kids are but at any age they will understand feeling sick and needing time to get over it.  If they're old enough give them responsibilities to help out.  Like most of us, it helps to feel as if we're doing something to contribute, even if you're only 3.  I've got AC to look forward to next week and I don't know how I'm going to cope but I know I have to.  I'm envious that you're halfway through!

The user and all related content has been deleted.

Thanks, I know it’s something we just have to do, think I was a big wimp, this time! 
i think I was feeling so bad this time, as something was brewing.
I have now developed a respiratory infection, so spent the morning at the hospital, on an iv and ECG machine, after nearly passing out as they canulated me... Home with antibiotics, so hopefully they will kick in soon. Haven’t moved from the sofa since 1pm!!! 

The user and all related content has been deleted.

@Spillsy, baby steps. You'll feel a little better each day. @Mrs_H is right - I found the hardest thing was to be feeling reasonably good the day of my chemo - very hard lining yourself up again when you know what you're in for.  I had chemo 3 weekly on a Friday so every 3rd Thursday would go to our favourite Greek restaurant as my special treat before FUF ( f....ked up Friday)   Xx

yes spillsy they just dont get it but we do .... HUGS 

Thanks to all of you, this has been a tough spell, I couldn’t explain it to hubby, but I felt like I wasn’t really alive, just hanging by a thread. Today has been better, 2 walks, ate dinner with family and did a bit of work, but feeling pooped again now. Hoping I wake up even better tomorrow. It’s got to be attacking my lump , that’s what I keep saying. I think this group is a life saver as you are all so giving and supportive. Tried to explain to 2 friends, today but they don’t get it!!!! One of them even said she hadn’t had much of a holiday.......over summer, after being away for a week and off camping next week for five days. Mmm - funny that I will just get on and get stuck into chemo....because that’s is so much fun!!!