Where did my gratitude go? I swear I left it right here somewhere...

@"Summer Prevails" and @kmakm This is where I am at the moment too. It's just all too hard. I just can't see myself getting my mojo back after this is all over. Only last Friday I told my Cancer Council telephone counsellor that I felt confident I was on top of everything and we ended the sessions. Yesterday I hit a wall again. It seems it just never bloody stops. Two-thirds of the way through chemo, radiation still to go, putting on weight like a pregnant pig, hating my body, in continuous discomfort with the mesh panel under my expander and the roll of fat/ fluid under my arm ... and family tensions that will never go away. Punch after punch. My old positive spirit, so often praised, is gone and I think it's gone for good. Just going an hour at a time at the moment. Shall see how the next few days go. Probably need to hook back in to the counsellor. 

Big hugs to you both and to everyone else with similar feelings.

Hello @onemargie. Thankyou for taking the time to post the recipe for the brownies. I will be making these for smoko this afternoon. No baileys in the cupboard and our liquor stores do not open until 1pm dailey. (Kimberley Alcohol Accord). I will let you know how the brownies turn out. Just reading the recipe they sound much nicer than the brownie I have on my Thursday coffee meet.

WOW!  Fingers crossed for the job, @Zoffiel  .... it sounds like you nailed it!!  :)  

@PatsyN  - haha now you'll have to take us thru a blow by blow steps on how to do it!!

@tigerbeth - well done - I hope you've not had any burns/peeling to contend with.  The warm boob will take 3-4 weeks to 'cool down' - so you are now officially One Hot Mama!!  ;)  Just be prepared for a bit of emotion on the last day!  It absolutely hit me from left field ..... I was yoohooing & yahooing as I approached the facility & by the time I was on the table I was a snivelling mess!!  They'd been my daily crutch for 4 weeks - and I was going to miss them big time.

@onemargie  - WOW   Do they make diabetic chocolate?  If I made them, hubby would scoff them down in one hit!!!  Sounds Scrummy tho!

@"Annie C"  & @kmakm - I hope you are feeling better in yourself today ... thinking of you xx

@Joannie - I TOTALLY believe in a little bit of self love ..... I bought a new/used recording device to record my uke group the other day (beating the GST by 1 day!!) and it is terrific!!  Doing a little bit of what you like is also good therapy - be it sleeping in, walking, gardening - whatever tickles your fancy! 

Thanks @onemargie the recipe sounds great I'll have to give it a go !
Feeling better than I was at the beginning of the week ,thanks for asking .
one more week of rads to go ! Can't wait to get it over with ! 
@ zoffiel i so hope you get the job , fingers crossed 
makes me feel ungrateful for the job I have & don't want !! 
But need to stick it out if we want to continue to travel 
All the best xxx

@zoffiel It's hard not to get your hopes up but, regardless of the outcome, you obviously did well at the interview so that should help with confidence - you've said previously about that.  Fingers still crossed for you!

@onemargie - I'll copy that for future reference.  Unfortunately, at the moment, chocolate is about the most disgusting taste on Earth.  Maybe the kids can do them during the hols.

Fingers crossed @Zoffiel. I bloody hope you get the job with a bit of flexibility that would be awesome. You’ll be soo good at it they won’t care if you have a couple days off in the fortnight that’s for sure.  Keep us posted. Big hug. Margie.  Xxx 

It went well thanks @onemargie . I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but it was a comfortable interview that ended with the primary  asking how many days a week I'd prefer to work--it was advertised as full time--so there may be an option for a 8 or 9 day fortnight. How great would that be? I could organise appointments and they'd never need to know.

For you @"Annie C" and anyone else who’d like to try them. Let me know how they go down with your friends. My best friend in adelaide who gave me the recipe serves hers with whipped cream or ice cream and and splash of baileys. How was the job interview @Zoffiel and I think you’re more like a lioness watching over the pride on the dragon boat rather than a gargoyle lol. How’s everyone else feeling today @"Summer Prevails"  @beccabecca @dak2. @PatsyN  @tigerbeth Has anyone heard from any of these lately ?? Big hug. Margie. Xx

@Joannie - My youngest daughter taught me how to do the Tim Tam Slam Dunk while I was on chemo. We filmed it for my other kids but I only know how to post photos...
So here's a still from my lesson.

@Joannie A new lippie sounds nice. K xox