Thanks ladies, @kmakm don't get me wrong i still make travel plans, also have always will, and our eldest is getting married in june next year <3 so i have that to look forward too, its like my brain switches off when i try to picture myself as old. i feel like that should be spoken about as well if so many people feel that, and its fine for everyone to say 'but you have to be positive; okay i positively can't picture ever not working and that sucks bickies, but the alternate is that i can't work because i get sick again and i don't want that either, after not googling graves for months as i didn't have the head space for more bad news, i turned to googling other auto immune diseases as clearly i will get another (Some kind soul told me most people get at least 2, so i was trying to pick which one i would be okay with.....like i get to pick which one. But my specialist was pretty confident my ct scan triggered the graves. ps love the word discomuluating, had to google that as well.
