Please do H. I just saw my psychologist for the first time in two months. I'm so f*****g miserable it's ridiculous. Cried, went back to the car, cried some more and am now sitting in a cafe sucking on a long macc (because I woke up six times last night, once from the dog whining at my door, the rest from hot flushes) trying not to cry. So so tired and overwhelmed with pointlessness. And then of course I feel guilty for not having the gratitude... What purpose does feeling guilty about feeling sad and ungrateful serve I ask you? It is the stupidest emotion I've felt in this whole wretched experience.
We all carry previous baggage into our BC. Some of us unearth previously unrealised baggage that's been sitting in the left luggage office waiting for us to collect it... I'm told the cloud will lift. In the hope that it will I keep plodding. Got a couple of tips from That Poor Woman as @Zoffiel has so perfectly named those who are paid to listen to our woes. So I'm going to try them put over the next few weeks.
One of the questions I asked was, so when people say 'how are you?' do I just say OK and move the conversation along? Yes she said, save the honesty for me and only the closest of your friends. At the risk of drawing ire from some here, to that I would add this forum. We all need to offload to sympathetic ears, to people who we feel will understand. It's not up to me to tell you to pull your socks up. I will hear your vent, your mumbles, your maundering and I will sympathise, console and if I think I have something that might help, I'll suggest it. PM me if you want.
Sorry to hear your back is acting up. I hope it feels better soon. K xox
