Where did my gratitude go? I swear I left it right here somewhere...

I can’t write properly cos I’m crying too much

thankyou for the kind words you all have sent me - just want to let you know I am still here 

im fighting very hard to stop the evil shit in my head, all day I’ve had nonstop images of suicide and I am so sorry to dump this out there and worry people but it’s just the truth. Nothing feels real. I don’t know what to say.