@"Annie C" @"Summer Prevails" Sometimes I think my reaction is a bit childish, that it's a bit of a 'it's not fair' drumming my heels into the floor moment. Of course life is not fair, and when it comes to BC it's actually why not me... Especially when the stats are one in eight.
Life is full of disappointment, for most people I'd say. I am most certainly not where I thought I would be five years ago and unlike many things, it's as as result of several events very much outside my control. I know we're supposed to make lemonade out of lemons but f**k me, seeing the silver lining in killer brain tumours, dead sisters, mental illnesses (not my own), breast cancers and distressed & disturbed children is a bloody big ask.
It's going to take time for me to get over this. My own BC has sucked away the energy I was using to manifest my previous 'best foot forward' attitude. I hope I don't sink any lower than I currently am. It sounds like you've managed to turn things round @"Annie C", with time and kindness to yourself and putting yourself first? How much time before you started to feel a bit better?
I was warned having breast cancer would change me. So far I'm hating what it's done. Sounds like you are too Summer P. Anger at how you're feeling shows me you care. All I can say is hang in there. Like me you'll just have to trust that like everyone says, eventually this feeling of pointlessness will pass. We'll hang in there together if it's any consolation. Kate xox
