Yes @Summer Prevails I can relate to what you are feeling. I have lost my "joy of life". Days pass by and I sometimes wonder what I have done. Things do not seem to go right.
The inside of my gate is far more appealing than the outside. Yet I make myself go into town to "meet and greet".
I have changed. I no longer plan anything just in case I have to change or drop my plans. Past events tend to be placed into before BC or post BC.
Prior to BC my life was how I wanted it to be, ordered and controlled. On June 29, 2017 my world shifted on its axis and tipped me off. When I picked myself up and dusted myself off I found that I did not view the world as quite so friendly. Something had changed and that something for me was my idea of control. I had lost control of my life. Life was not going how I planned it.
I now plod through life whereas prior to BC I skipped. Am I happy? Well at the end of each day when I close my eyes I tell myself that I am glad that I am still here.
In order to find that joy of life again, I pick an activity for the day that I enjoyed and get stuck into it. Just one each day.
