Summer_Prevails
7 years agoMember
Where did my gratitude go? I swear I left it right here somewhere...
can anyone relate to that feeling of getting through a bloody battle of all the treatment, the horror, the fight, and then that awesome feeling of sheer happy gratitude after it’s over?
and you wanted to grab everyone and hug them and swore you’d never let a single second go by without being thrilled to be alive and not sick?
and you were going to live an amazing productive love filled life embracing everything because you knew how fragile life can be?
yeah. I’ve lost that. I’m depressed and wondering where the F_@&! did all of my pure gratitude and excitement go? I’m so angry at myself for being like this after fighting so hard to make it through.
Has as anyone else found they just don’t have that spirit of gladness in everyday life anymore, that cancer stripped away your spark and you’ll never get it back and care about anything ever again?
and you wanted to grab everyone and hug them and swore you’d never let a single second go by without being thrilled to be alive and not sick?
and you were going to live an amazing productive love filled life embracing everything because you knew how fragile life can be?
yeah. I’ve lost that. I’m depressed and wondering where the F_@&! did all of my pure gratitude and excitement go? I’m so angry at myself for being like this after fighting so hard to make it through.
Has as anyone else found they just don’t have that spirit of gladness in everyday life anymore, that cancer stripped away your spark and you’ll never get it back and care about anything ever again?