Shifting priorities
I am just past two years from BC. It is only now that everything has hit me so deeply. What I had, what happened to the before me, losing friends, so many things just falling away on...
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It's not unusual for grief to have a 2 year timing. As @primek says, it's about acceptance - not about liking it. We have to reach a space where we are not raging or despairing but just accepting and allowing ourselves to mourn - then moving on. Something fundamental has broken in me - my trust in my own body - and I am now outside of the mainstream of people. They don't get it. I think you are right to try to give yourself some space. Speak to your psychologist, or get a new one if you need to. You need to get back to living but I think that you also need to acknowledge what you have lost and that you are allowed to be sad and angry about it - and fearful, too. And please don't think that I am saying this from some lofty position...I am grappling with it, too.