Shifting priorities

My sympathies, grieving is hard at any time but it’s particularly difficult when it hits you hard and everyone expects you to be ‘over it’. I didn’t experience it personally (I am seven years out now) but my mother went through a horrible period of delayed grieving five years after my father’s death. If you can, keep seeing a psychologist, these things take time to resolve. Apart from all the obvious physical impacts, cancer has a nasty habit of stirring up old and often unresolved emotional and personal issues. Many people experience a new ‘normal’. For me, this was very close to the old me, no major differences but a calmer, less hyper me!! Which was good. For others, the new normal is a greater shift but acceptable with adaptations. But for some, it’s a pale and unattractive version of what they felt they had before. That way lies sadness and possibly depression and needs some professional help before it becomes engulfing. It is however a normal reaction to trauma in its own way and nothing to be apologetic about. Let your husband and children help, focus on your wonderful
assets in them rather than your sense of loss of others. We all work so hard to recover from cancer, it was to have a happier life thereafter. Your happiness is important. Best wishes.