@"Kiwi Angel" @Sister @kmakm - I read this with the same feelings as you! Going through treatment for the first time, and yes, doing it all when I'm essentially cancer free! The thought of doing it again, later down the track is horrendous! But then I guess our resilience kicks in when we need it most and the thought of simply giving up is even more horrendous. One of the most encouraging things for me, is that there's still so much research going on and so many advancements and new, emerging treatments all the time.