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Chanel
Member
9 years ago

Is this as good as it gets?

Hello, I hope everyone is travelling well. It's been 2  weeks since I started taking Tamoxifen ,  seems to be ok. I'm still having counselling which is good but today I'm emotional and upset. This just overwhelms me and I try to motivate myself from wanting to just sit and stare out the window. It sucks.
i have so much to be grateful for and I am but it doesn't change the way I feel.
i don't think it's a side effect of the medication.
i think I just need a hug and a shoulder xxxx
i do hope everyone of you are going well.
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  • Tracey62's avatar
    Tracey62
    Member
    9 years ago
    Hi Chanel, we've all been there -those days when it's just not worth the battle and we fall in a heap. What we've been through is emotionally traumatic, as well as the trauma to our bodies and the disruption to life as we knew it. It's ok to just sit there, and feel the pain and loss and sadness of it all. Let it all wash out with your tears. Probably a lot more healthy than putting on that brave face we have all practiced so well. 
    So 2 weeks into Tamoxifen means you must have only recently finished "active" treatment? This isn't as good as it gets, it's get better every day, the further you progress after treatment. Maybe we should tell ourselves instead the worst is behind me, the best is yet to come. 
    You're not alone, Tracey xXx
  • Hopes_and_Dream's avatar
    Hopes_and_Dream
    Member
    9 years ago
    Hi Chanel, sorry that you are having a difficult day.  You summed it up in your post - there doesn't have to be a reason for feeling emotional and you certainly don't need to excuse it!  It doesn't mean that you aren't grateful for what you have ....     it just means you are an amazing, strong woman who has been through a hell of a lot and sometimes need to give in to your feelings.  I think from time to time we just need to stop and be.  We need to re-charge and take some deep breaths.  Who cares if we do that by staring out the window, watching TV, sleeping, sitting in the sun.  What matters is that we listen to what our body and soul needs at that time.  Sending you a huge hug Chanel.  Hope the sun shines brighter tomorrow.   Love Jane xx