I thought I was doing okay

That's what the site and all of us are for, come whenever you want to. I am 6 years out, probably not as useful as others because, honestly, I've forgotten some stuff! It can and does happen. Life is like a boat, it's meant to be on the ocean. The sea can be rough and it may be scary, but our boat is not fulfilling its purpose tied up at the jetty all the time. After the first scary trip, we rather fancy the jetty option, but sooner or later, when we are ready, we put out to sea again. Maybe just a safe trip, with a trusted companion, to begin with, until we get our sea legs again!! Best wishes.