I thought I was doing okay
I thought I was doing okay. Finished treatment in April. Now part of the short grey hair brigade-hair has grown back grey and wirey so growing some length is not an option unless I want to look...
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@JSN
It's the aftermath that is never explained properly through the treatment stage and takes you by surprise. The tsunami after the earthquake so to speak.
A lot of us have posted very similar things after treatment ends. Your mortalitiy is now incredibly real and it plays on your mind. Every ache, pain, sneeze will give you that cold rush of fear fthinking it's back. It does calm with time and you will be able to stand your work collegues again. It's hard in the beginning listening to them complain about getting a latte instead of a flat white. They don't know any better and neither would we "before" and hopefully they never will. There were many times I had to hold my tongue while overhearing mundane everyday conversations.
It's very normal to feel that way for a bit. Treatment is over, you made it through and now life get's back to normal right? Or you vow to change your life, never waste another minute and do something fantastic then feel guitly because you are just stuck in limbo land.
Limbo land stinks and nobody wants to be there too long.
I rember thinking to myself one day how ironic it was that I was wishing time away so I could feel better when the whole treatment ordeal was to have more time. That one simple thought was a game changer. I just wish it haden't taken 18months to think of it :smile:
For me,(and every one is different) owning it helped. Yes I had cancer, yes I made it through and out the other side, yes those billboards are there for awareness for others and yes I can now deal with the cancer patients results and filing at work without getting the cold shivers. Maybe help someone else here and there.
There will be shaky parts, tears, frustration and anger along the way but you will get there. The first year is the hardest. Promise.
Don't sweat the small stuff and have a brilliant holiday. Stand proud lovely lady. YOU DID IT!
Hugs.
xoxox
It's the aftermath that is never explained properly through the treatment stage and takes you by surprise. The tsunami after the earthquake so to speak.
A lot of us have posted very similar things after treatment ends. Your mortalitiy is now incredibly real and it plays on your mind. Every ache, pain, sneeze will give you that cold rush of fear fthinking it's back. It does calm with time and you will be able to stand your work collegues again. It's hard in the beginning listening to them complain about getting a latte instead of a flat white. They don't know any better and neither would we "before" and hopefully they never will. There were many times I had to hold my tongue while overhearing mundane everyday conversations.
It's very normal to feel that way for a bit. Treatment is over, you made it through and now life get's back to normal right? Or you vow to change your life, never waste another minute and do something fantastic then feel guitly because you are just stuck in limbo land.
Limbo land stinks and nobody wants to be there too long.
I rember thinking to myself one day how ironic it was that I was wishing time away so I could feel better when the whole treatment ordeal was to have more time. That one simple thought was a game changer. I just wish it haden't taken 18months to think of it :smile:
For me,(and every one is different) owning it helped. Yes I had cancer, yes I made it through and out the other side, yes those billboards are there for awareness for others and yes I can now deal with the cancer patients results and filing at work without getting the cold shivers. Maybe help someone else here and there.
There will be shaky parts, tears, frustration and anger along the way but you will get there. The first year is the hardest. Promise.
Don't sweat the small stuff and have a brilliant holiday. Stand proud lovely lady. YOU DID IT!
Hugs.
xoxox