Afraid to finish chemo

I would have to say the scariest part of having treatment was finishing up my active treatment of chemo & radiation. Even though I was having monthly injections & monthly oncologist appointments...its not the same as having treatment that you know is actively killing cancers butt. It's a scary time and literally everyone else is like yay it's over & they put it behind then but there's no way we can and so we're almost expected to "get over it" 

I like kmakm thoughts around having other plans, something that gives us structure like treatment did. 
Counselling - especially around grief & loss 
Massage 
Exercise
Nutrition

Thank you - I think I will have to make some plans on structured things to be doing when treatment is over. I do worry about the expectation from others that treatment is over and now life goes back to normal but people don’t understand the toll it all takes physically and emotionally. 

ddon said:

Thank you - I think I will have to make some plans on structured things to be doing when treatment is over. I do worry about the expectation from others that treatment is over and now life goes back to normal but people don’t understand the toll it all takes physically and emotionally. 

Absolutely, I'm 5 years on from chemo & radiation. Still on long term meds that have continued to mess with my body and life's plans. I'm just a lot more assertive, if people throw me any grief or question why you're still struggling. I say I'm still doing treatment and doing it tough 
I've become better at knowing what I can and can't control and I definitely can't control others expectations or actions 

Hi ddon, 
Know exactly where you’re coming from.
I finished chemotherapy last July and Radiotherapy last October.
I like you was very anxious and felt like my safety net had been taken away from me, like you I thought whilst this evil stuff is being pumped through me I’m going to be ok.

Im now 6 months post Chemotherapy and feeling better all the time, Had first mammogram in December had the all clear after diagnosis and treatment.
I felt much better after the first check up.
Keep yourself busy with things you love to do, stay around positive people, I’m finding even now that meditation is helping me enormously.
Speaking with a therapist is an excellent idea, as like you I don’t want to burden my family with more.
Talking here is also a great way to express your feelings as we understand.
If you want to pm me we can also speak privately as I’m not that far in front of you and have just recently been through those emotions.
Stay positive as it does get better, give yourself time to adjust it does get easier.
Stay in contact with your BC nurse, you are never alone.

Sending hugs xx

Thank you shell shocked. How do I pm you? Would love someone to communicate with because I don’t know anyone going thru this or anyone who has been thru it recently. 

Hello @ddon I have attached link below which explains how to send private messages.  Any problems call 1800 500 258
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/discussion/comment/87144/#Comment_87144

Thank you Giovanna