I am dealing with secondaries...I'm not going to lie to you it is shit! planning your own funeral...crap! Telling your kids you won't see them grow up! totally, utterly gut wrenching crap!
Dealing with the fact that cancer is going to kill me! utterly, completely CRAP!
People telling me I should just stay positive "wanting to punch them in the face" CRAPPITY CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!
Belinda ... I have been following your journey over the last 6 months and I find your courage totally awe-inspiring.
The fact that you have accepted the inevitable and have used this precious time to spend with your family and create memories they will always hold onto, their birthdays, and yours, Christmas and the New Year (perhaps not on as grande a scale as you could wish) means that in time they will remember you with smiles not tears.
It never ceases to amaze me that through this bloody disease we make contact and form friendships with people we may never meet in this life but I'm sure we'll all get together some where, some time. Until then ...... Much love to you and yours
Shirl x0x0x
Belinda ... I have been following your journey over the last 6 months and I find your courage totally awe-inspiring.
The fact that you have accepted the inevitable and have used this precious time to spend with your family and create memories they will always hold onto, their birthdays, and yours, Christmas and the New Year (perhaps not on as grande a scale as you could wish) means that in time they will remember you with smiles not tears.
It never ceases to amaze me that through this bloody disease we make contact and form friendships with people we may never meet in this life but I'm sure we'll all get together some where, some time. Until then ...... Much love to you and yours
Shirl x0x0x
I was so sad to read your blog but inspired at the same time.Your courage is beyond words.I hope another chemo will buy you more time with your lovely family.Sending love and hugs,Tonya xx
I was so sad to read your blog but inspired at the same time.Your courage is beyond words.I hope another chemo will buy you more time with your lovely family.Sending love and hugs,Tonya xx
Belinda I am so sorry to hear your news. You are an inspiration to many. To be so brave to try another chemo shows your undeniable never ending love for your family. I have everything crossed that the next round of treatment is far more successful and helps to relieve any pain you are feeling. I can't imagine how you manage to find the strength day after day but your courage amazes me. I am sending all my love and wishes to you and your family xx Lara xx
Hi Belinda, well my darling - what can I say, I am shocked and deeply upset - it makes me realise how darn fragile everything is. Unusual for me but I am having difficulty in expressing myself, but can I say that I wish you love. X x x Josie
Hi Belinda, well my darling - what can I say, I am shocked and deeply upset - it makes me realise how darn fragile everything is. Unusual for me but I am having difficulty in expressing myself, but can I say that I wish you love. X x x Josie
Well ladies I am sad to report that things are NOT going well...
I have been trying Abraxane at half strength for the past 3 months and it has been an EPIC FAIL to say the least! Many of my tumors have tripled in size and I have had extensive progression all around. I am totally & uttererly gutted :(
I knew treatment was not going well as I wasn't feeling very tired and short of breathe and have been in ALOT of pain. But did not expect things to have gone pear shaped so quickly....
Soo...basically now I have been refered to Pallative care for pain management and have chosen to try yet another chemo in the hope it may buy me a bit more time with my 3 beautiful children and very brave husband! Although my Oncologist has advised me if this doesn't work...I may only have weeks left :O(
Just in case, I would like to say a HUGE THANK YOU to all you ladies who have offered me so much kindness and support through this journey, it's been tough and painful but at the end of the day I have gotten a year with secondaries and time to prepare my family and tell them how much I dearly love them....that in it'self is a wonderful gift :)
Peace out my Pink Sistahs! LOVE TO YOU ALL xox
Well ladies I am sad to report that things are NOT going well...
I have been trying Abraxane at half strength for the past 3 months and it has been an EPIC FAIL to say the least! Many of my tumors have tripled in size and I have had extensive progression all around. I am totally & uttererly gutted :(
I knew treatment was not going well as I wasn't feeling very tired and short of breathe and have been in ALOT of pain. But did not expect things to have gone pear shaped so quickly....
Soo...basically now I have been refered to Pallative care for pain management and have chosen to try yet another chemo in the hope it may buy me a bit more time with my 3 beautiful children and very brave husband! Although my Oncologist has advised me if this doesn't work...I may only have weeks left :O(
Just in case, I would like to say a HUGE THANK YOU to all you ladies who have offered me so much kindness and support through this journey, it's been tough and painful but at the end of the day I have gotten a year with secondaries and time to prepare my family and tell them how much I dearly love them....that in it'self is a wonderful gift :)
Peace out my Pink Sistahs! LOVE TO YOU ALL xox
