pain in the...

It's comforting to be here which is the opposite of how my torso feels at the moment. The cancer has come back again in the spine yeah its bc and I'm taking analgesics for stress fracture in my t8 and t1which also has cancer in them. Ive just finished radiation and taking for the first time tamoxifen which has been about 4 weeks. At the moment my ribs are sore and today is my 2nd mental effort to eat moderately and more healthy. I know that the tamoxifen is putting the weight on and it's depressing and I thought I could wean off the pain killers but I don't think it's going to be that simple. I see my oncologist in one weeks time and a blood test will confirm more areas of infection (hopefully nothing). I am seriously considering coming off tamoxifen and going heavily into using OPC3 supplement which is what I used last time and the results were stunning. Will keep you posted. Thanks for letting me vent. Sometimes like this afternoon a friend asked how I was and yeah told her I was in pain then she offered her help I just had to call her. A hand to hold someone to just be here would of been nice for half an hour.. Bloody he'll I might as well move back to nz. I don't know it's frustrating.