Hello Donna, this blog is the best place to let it all out! No one ever judges you on here. Sorry to hear of your secondaries. I can't even imagine how I would feel if it were me.I know what you mean by people and their support.Its too common to be told, give me a call if you need help. Of course you aren't going to call. What state do u live in Donna,and whereabouts in NZ r u from? I hope your blood test results are good. Please stay on here and let us know how you are going. Nice to meet you. Cheers xxxRobyn