Hi @Mazbeth, no apologies needed for the length - all of it is so very much welcomed.
I don’t know of anywhere else where I can reach out at anytime and someone generously touches my hand with personal stories. My heart warms and smiles when I read of your outcome for you xx
Day 4 and the waterworks come on, gently streaming down my face for no apparent reason - except perhaps that I opened my eyes, feel a warm flush. A new experience - just had cycle 3 and another symptom (?).
‘Letting go of known and stepping into unknown terrain, remoulding life like a slab of clay’ is how I am trying to stay positive, focused and forward steps’. Trying is my key word - sometimes I slip but years of resilience and life teachable moments picks me up, it feels weaker, surreal.
I have lived in Brisbane and returned to Sydney when Covid showed up; I chose to become a working gypsy in my career life or more accurately, it chose me. I’ve just become a grandmother again and feel the cancer has taken something deeper away from me - all the drs suggested maintain higher level of distance with covid during AC and try to do the balancing act with family/friend support. Not an easy gig but has been manageable with much creativity.
I have tapped into the LGFG prog but did feel overwhelmed and didn’t connect with others - I wasn’t even connected to self. Smoothies - strawberry blueberry high on food intake and fresh superfood juices when I can. Appetite is all over the shop. I am keeping mobile and find qi gong helpful - do what I can to stay present and in the moment. I work for self and find my mind sneaks away to how that part of life is deteriorated when I can’t maintain my normal level of work. I see my small business crumbling creating other obvious concerns. I hold the dove of hope that my brain city lights will remain stimulated. Cancer NSW have linked me in with counselling and a buddy which I find of great value.
I give much thanks to you for sharing, helping steady my wobbled self xxxx
