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annabody67
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1 day ago

Feeling overwhelmed

Hi thereAll 

I am 59, happily married,  have two adult children.  One grandson and baby no 2 due anyday now...

Had surgery last week for lumpectomy and Sentinel node biopsy. Everything went well 

Saw surgeron yesterday . Lymph nodes are clear.  Margins good.

My issues is I am SO overwhelmed. Smiling for family. Smiling for friends.

Little background.  I had **bleep** cancer 10 years ago, back in 2016.  Chemo and radiation.  It was brutal. The burns were horrible. The exhaustion was the worst.

Everyone is saying.... your so lucky you caught it early.

You've done this before... you'll be right.

Support is encouraging and I am lucky to be surrounded by lots of love.

I am to be a grandmother again in two weeks and have a lively gorgeous  2 year old grandson.

Timing suck....

I am overwhelmed with sadness

  I am overwhelmed With discourage,  feeling of resentment.  Feeling very isolated.  

**bleep** THIS CANCER... so sorry for language but it express how I feel.

I want to shout. Cry. Hit something and hide under the covers and not deal with this. 

I know that I should be grateful.  I am sick and exhausting from smiling on the outside, but paddling like hell of the inside. Hiding my emotions. 

I still work. Love the job. I work for a Toy library as assistant.  Its not a stresing job. Only 3 days a week. They have been wonderful. 

How has everyone else cope. I know what I am going through is normal. 

Can anyone suggest a good cancer support group.

I live in Victoria on the  Mornington peninsula. 

Love and support to everyone going on this same journey 

Let's kick ass . Cancer sucks.

Xxxxxx

anxiety
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invasive ductal carcinoma
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2 Replies

  • Tri's avatar
    Tri
    Member
    3 hours ago

    Hiannabody67​ andMelG67​ thank you for sharing how you are feeling. I feel it is okay to be sad and overwhelmed, especially when you have had another horrible experience with the disease, it would be something that rocked your world. I am pretty hopeless at sitting with my feelings of sadness and unfairness - I spend quite a lot of time distracting myself away from personal reflection and will do any other things to avoid them!

    I do however, keep a gratitude journal- just for me - to see or remember the things I take for granted- that I once didn’t have. Eg 2 years ago I could not have cleaned my teeth with my electric toothbrush because the ulcers I had from chemo were so painful. Now I can. 
    I think it’s okay to feel how you do. 

  • MelG67's avatar
    MelG67
    New member
    9 hours ago

    I can relate to being overwhelmed! I am 58, have had a lumpectomy and lymph node bios. The results were good however the complications from surgery left me feeling hollow and anxious.  I have a heart condition and take blood thinners (which made the complications very more tricky!) was in and out of hospital twice after initial surgery. 
    I thought after having had heart surgery, a stroke and frontal lobe seizures that my breast cancer journey would be much easier!! 
    Cancer does suck!! I feel for you having had cancer earlier too 💕

    I am in the Sunshine Coast and there is a lot of medical support but I just want to be back to normal!! I know that’s not that simple!