Feeling overwhelmed

Hi thereAll 

I am 59, happily married,  have two adult children.  One grandson and baby no 2 due anyday now...

Had surgery last week for lumpectomy and Sentinel node biopsy. Everything went well 

Saw surgeron yesterday . Lymph nodes are clear.  Margins good.

My issues is I am SO overwhelmed. Smiling for family. Smiling for friends.

Little background.  I had **bleep** cancer 10 years ago, back in 2016.  Chemo and radiation.  It was brutal. The burns were horrible. The exhaustion was the worst.

Everyone is saying.... your so lucky you caught it early.

You've done this before... you'll be right.

Support is encouraging and I am lucky to be surrounded by lots of love.

I am to be a grandmother again in two weeks and have a lively gorgeous  2 year old grandson.

Timing suck....

I am overwhelmed with sadness

  I am overwhelmed With discourage,  feeling of resentment.  Feeling very isolated.  

**bleep** THIS CANCER... so sorry for language but it express how I feel.

I want to shout. Cry. Hit something and hide under the covers and not deal with this. 

I know that I should be grateful.  I am sick and exhausting from smiling on the outside, but paddling like hell of the inside. Hiding my emotions. 

I still work. Love the job. I work for a Toy library as assistant.  Its not a stresing job. Only 3 days a week. They have been wonderful. 

How has everyone else cope. I know what I am going through is normal. 

Can anyone suggest a good cancer support group.

I live in Victoria on the  Mornington peninsula. 

Love and support to everyone going on this same journey 

Let's kick ass . Cancer sucks.

Xxxxxx