I just diagnosed Breast Cancer

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Joanne213
Joanne213 Member Posts: 10
Hi everyone, I am new in this group, but I am a Christian hoping to get some support. I just diagnosed breast cancer and feel very bad and not knowing what to do besides non stop tears. Specialist said I will need to go thru chemo before surgery, i really don't want to do chemo, I am so afraid of the side effects, I also need to go thru all the scans to make sure it hasn't spread.

I don't even know how to pray, I need God's help, His healing, His miracle n His mercy.

I just don't have peace.

PLS help

Joanne 

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  • Blossom1961
    Blossom1961 Member Posts: 2,380
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    Hi Joanne, It is okay to cry. It is also okay to not know what to pray. God knows your heart and thoughts better than you do. He knows what you need before you ever voice the words or think the thoughts. Find a favourite scripture verse or song and play it over in your head until you can relax. Then just sit in His presence. No need for words or thoughts, just be. God will minister to you right where you are at. 

    I had chemo first then surgery back in 2018. Yes the side effects were not nice, but it is doable. Take one moment at a time. Life is sometimes scary, but God is holding your hand all the way. If things get too rough, ask him to carry you.

    I am now metastatic in my bones and lymph nodes and yet, after the initial diagnosis when I was completely devastated, I forced myself to breathe deep and let God take control. That was over eighteen months ago and whilst I still have 'moments', I know his peace.

    Sending big hugs to and prayers for you.

    xxx
  • Joanne213
    Joanne213 Member Posts: 10
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    Hi Blossom, thank you for your encouragement, I hope you are well too and pray that you get fully recovered.

    I just dont have peace...i feel horrible....
  • Blossom1961
    Blossom1961 Member Posts: 2,380
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    @Joanne213 God is still there Joanne, even in your unrest. Letting go is soooooo hard. Baby steps. Spend one minute just being in His presence. Do that each time things overwhelm you. One minute increments are achievable. Eventually you will find your peace return. Baby steps. God understands. Baby steps. Stress is overwhelming. Baby steps. 

    Sometimes we need to relax before we can relax. Go for a massage, soak in the tub, watch a weird comedy, do your favourite thing. As humans with crazy emotions, sometimes we need to concentrate on refocussing. 

    I was in the same place as you. It is really not a nice place to be in. It was hard to move past it but I refuse to let go now that I have that peace again.
  • Joanne213
    Joanne213 Member Posts: 10
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    Hi Blossom ,you are such an angel, I thank God I am surrounded by angel like you. I just finished my MRI today and things went well, not sure about the results, but still has lots of scan to do. I pray hard every moment to ask God to help and heal me. 

    Luvya
  • Blossom1961
    Blossom1961 Member Posts: 2,380
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    🤣🤣🤣 Nothing angelic about me. If I was an Angel, all the other angels would be wearing medals for putting up with me.
    Did you have to put your boobs in a cup for the MRI? I did. Then I stuck my head down in the special slot for your face and tried to sleep. Apparently, that wasn’t the idea. I was actually very comfortable.
  • Joanne213
    Joanne213 Member Posts: 10
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    @Blossom1961 yes I did stuck my breast in the hole...the machine is very loud  but the nurse gave me a headset for me to listen to music.... I felt ok as I was very tired especially I haven't been eating and sleeping well after I knew I got this bad news.... I am praying hard asking God to help me and hoping for a miracle...
  • SoldierCrab
    SoldierCrab Member Posts: 3,446
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    Welcome @Joanne213 to the group you never thought you would need. 
    I am now over 11yrs since diagnosis and God has walked with me through the good bad and ugly of breast cancer treatments. 

    He said be still and Know I am God. 
    like Blossom1961 said step by step.. 

    I pray that you have found some more information out that will allow you to understand the path ahead. 
    I will be praying for you. 

    Hugs 
    Soldier crab
  • Joanne213
    Joanne213 Member Posts: 10
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    @SoldierCrab nice to e-meet you. Thanks for your comfort and prayer support. You have such a great faith...
    For me...I am still at kindergarten when talking about faith...I trust that God has a good plan for me and the plan does not include breast cancer...😔
    In the past 10 years, there are too many ups and downs.. including 2 ectopic pregnancies...n one literally ruptured and I was sent to ER...
    Last year was the time I started to feel closer to God and life started to get a bit more stable...then.. bam.... breast cancer... although early stage no spread out...still send to chemo...that really kills me, my body, my emotions...my everything...
    I don't know why .... I have asking God to heal me ...seems like He turned away and ignored...

    But thank you so much for your prayer support that I really need.

    Jo....
  • SoldierCrab
    SoldierCrab Member Posts: 3,446
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    @Joanne213
    ah we all have faith the size of a mustard seed and it can move mountains. 
    Be gentle on yourself. 
    I found accepting that the doctors (team who manage your BC) have been sent by God to help you navigate the roller coaster ride 

    BE Still and Know I am GOD 

    rest in Him... 
    I will keep praying for you.

    hugs 
    Soldiercrab

  • Joanne213
    Joanne213 Member Posts: 10
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    @SoldierCrab..thank you so much for your support and you prayers...... Luvya 💋