Sitting here at 4:15am (CST) after trying since 2:30am to go back to sleep and finally giving up, yet again... Wondering who else is out there this morning, and most mornings at this time?

I love this cartoon by Michael Leunig, 'The Great Whale of Doom'. Here's to sardines on toast!

Dear Bandicoot. Get in the car, go to the beach. Eat chips without the fish and while you are on a roll, walk into a barber and say ''Get rid of this mess, please.' I get it with everyone wanting you to keep your hair. Really, I do. But there comes a time when you have tried your best, have done everything you can, and it not going to work. There comes a time when this is not about anyone else. It's about you and what is going to make your overly complicated life easier. One thing about bald, it's easy :)Marg xxx

my chill out (leave me the f*** alone for 5 mins) spot.

I have been diagnosed 2 weeks ago, waiting for surgery date, problems with sleeping as well, evenings and nights I am the most worried, simply scared about all the uncertainty. Especially if I am on a morning shift, I get anxious because I can't sleep but need the sleep. My mind totally rejects movies at present, so I dug up an old pastime for anxious times: jig saw puzzling, started yesterday on a beautiful scene with sparkling river running over rocks, a church and snowy mountains on the horizon. It felt soothing just looking at the cool running water, especially since around Tamworth everything is bone dry at the moment. I jig saw puzzled, had cup of herbal tea, till I felt really tired, then fell into bed, I did not think about my cancer for the whole time and had a restful sleep. Thank you everyone for posting, it helps not to feel alone,

Slept well in hospital here again. Bit of awake time at 2am for an hour, then land of zzzzz again until 5am. Claire on nightshift saw my light was on and brought me a cuppa......angel! o:)

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kmakm
Member
7 years ago
@Sister To my diagnosis sister, congratulations on finishing chemo today! You may not feel like jumping for joy but I hope you feel the same as I did, a deep satisfaction at making it through, and walking outta there in one piece, with no regrets, to hopefully never return. I feel so proud of you for keeping going with your gritty determination. Well done. Kate xox
Eastmum
Member
7 years ago
@Sister - absolutely take your own! And I’ll be ringing a loud beautiful bell figuratively for you! Actually bugger the bell! You’ll walk out of there knowing you’ve done it! Worked through all the crappy side effects, sleepless nights - ALL the shit - and made it through ALL your chemo treatments! You’ll be ringing your own personal ‘bell’ inside and that’s all you’ll need. You go girl!! - and yeah hahaha - I wouldn’t be able to enjoy the taste of the bubbles either - maybe a celebratory swig of mouth wash?? LOL. So excited for you today!!!
Kiwi_Angel
Member
7 years ago
@Sister good luck for the last one. They didn’t have a bell at my chemo either xoxox
Sister
Member
7 years ago
Thanks, @eastmum I'll leave the bubbles until I can taste them, though! They don't have a bell or any other celebratory thing at Kimberley though one of the nurses said they should. Maybe I should take my own!
Eastmum
Member
7 years ago
@Sister - LAST ONE TODAY!!! Hip HOORAY! That’s so AWESOME!
Definitely something to celebrate - absolutely fantastic. Do you get to ring a bell at the hospital where you go??
Sending you bucket loads of good wishes for today - yay!!!!

xxxxxxx
Sister
Member
7 years ago
Unfortunately, no dreams tonight. Awake at 2:15am and given up trying by 3am. I spoke to the cat about it but he had nothing to say! I always struggle the night before chemo but it's getting earlier each time. Probably lucky that today is my last one otherwise I could be getting up before I go to bed. Ho hum...
JJ70
Member
7 years ago
@Sister I am cracking up!
Finch
Member
7 years ago
@Sister I love your cat and you've made me giggle :)
Sister
Member
7 years ago
Well, no such dreams for me...night before last, my cat was trying to talk to me (he was working on how to get the air through his larynx to form English words) and last night I was frantically trying to pack to go to NZ by myself and got into bother at the airport (for some reason, I had to sit on a large old-fashioned parcel scales so that my weight could be checked). I think I really need to get out more.
kmakm
Member
7 years ago
@JJ70 One can only hope...!