Who else can't sleep?

I've been up since 4am - awake a lot longer.  I have my worst sleep's the morning of chemo.  I guess I still get anxious about it.  No 7 Paclitaxol this morning.  I can't believe that I'm officially past the halfway mark but I've got to make it to No 9 according to the onc.  Up until the latest treatment, tingling in the fingers and toes has only been during the first few days and it seemed like it was the same this time but it started up again last night so I'm hoping that I don't get derailed.  I'm not sure how fast it comes on when it gets serious, or how serious it has to be before the chemo is stopped.  Much as I hate chemo, I'd be devastated to have come this far and not be able to finish it.

I am so over this all - I can't see the light in much anymore - it's just head down, slog through it.  I know I'm doing well, healthwise, compared to many on this site so please forgive the self-pity.  I will get through it, I know - it's just time.  I'm often finding lately that I read people's posts and I want to respond but cannot find the words, or I do respond and read it back later and think what a poor comment I made.  So, not such great support for others, I'm afraid.  And I'm back to the early days where I really don't want to talk about it when people ask.

Well, this started as a not sleeping post but morphed a bit.  Oh well... I hope most of you are sleeping soundly and catching up on those precious zzzz.  For those who are not, I've got some nice biccies in the tin.