Who else can't sleep?
Sitting here at 4:15am (CST) after trying since 2:30am to go back to sleep and finally giving up, yet again... Wondering who else is out there this morning, and most mornings at this time?
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Hiya @LMK74 - welcome to the night space. I don't think you've been here before but I may be wrong - I have no idea what's going on, anymore.
As usual - can't sleep past 3am so gave up.
Apart from usual thoughts running around my head, today is my father-in-law's 86th birthday and my in-laws' 56th wedding anniversary (wasn't he clever - never going to get in trouble for forgetting his anniversary). Sounds like a big milestone, and it is, except that he's at home under palliative care. We don't know whether he's just hanging on to make it to this day or this'll drag out for another 6 months going by his track record over the last 20 years. It may sound horrible, but it would be better for everyone, including him, if it ended soon. And I'm very fond of him and know how much he will be missed. The results of ignoring (probably more like spitting in the face of) diabetes for 50 years and relying on insulin to control things. I always wonder just how amazing his health could have been if he'd been even slightly inclined to manage his diet.
And to be selfish, I want my husband to clip my hair because I'm sick of looking like a mangy dog but he's reluctant (he's one of these "long hair" guys - not that mine's so long) and I don't want to push it at the moment (as I know he's struggling about his Dad but telling himself that he's not going to buy into grief until it's actually happening) but I'm going mad. Watch out - crazy woman in aisle 4! Way too many brackets!
And I want to go to the beach as this weekend may be the last of the good beach weather and I've only been once this season and that has never happened in my life - ever. I know - I could just go myself but I want to spend the afternoon down there with my family and eat fish and chips on the foreshore and think that life is normal. I wouldn't even expect to go paddleboarding (have you noticed my very unattractive profile picture? paddleboarding became my new passion last year). And my husband doesn't like the beach and it's a long drive and fish and chips for 5 gets pricey when there's no income.
Humph! There's some mighty big bandicoots around (an old saying of my Mum's: "as miserable as a bandicoot").
It's just pouring out of my fingers, this morning - brackets and all.
As usual - can't sleep past 3am so gave up.
Apart from usual thoughts running around my head, today is my father-in-law's 86th birthday and my in-laws' 56th wedding anniversary (wasn't he clever - never going to get in trouble for forgetting his anniversary). Sounds like a big milestone, and it is, except that he's at home under palliative care. We don't know whether he's just hanging on to make it to this day or this'll drag out for another 6 months going by his track record over the last 20 years. It may sound horrible, but it would be better for everyone, including him, if it ended soon. And I'm very fond of him and know how much he will be missed. The results of ignoring (probably more like spitting in the face of) diabetes for 50 years and relying on insulin to control things. I always wonder just how amazing his health could have been if he'd been even slightly inclined to manage his diet.
And to be selfish, I want my husband to clip my hair because I'm sick of looking like a mangy dog but he's reluctant (he's one of these "long hair" guys - not that mine's so long) and I don't want to push it at the moment (as I know he's struggling about his Dad but telling himself that he's not going to buy into grief until it's actually happening) but I'm going mad. Watch out - crazy woman in aisle 4! Way too many brackets!
And I want to go to the beach as this weekend may be the last of the good beach weather and I've only been once this season and that has never happened in my life - ever. I know - I could just go myself but I want to spend the afternoon down there with my family and eat fish and chips on the foreshore and think that life is normal. I wouldn't even expect to go paddleboarding (have you noticed my very unattractive profile picture? paddleboarding became my new passion last year). And my husband doesn't like the beach and it's a long drive and fish and chips for 5 gets pricey when there's no income.
Humph! There's some mighty big bandicoots around (an old saying of my Mum's: "as miserable as a bandicoot").
It's just pouring out of my fingers, this morning - brackets and all.