Hey @Shorelle, as @iserbrown said - be kind to yourself...and allow yourself to take the time to understand, acknowledge and accept what is happening to you.
Everyone's BC journey is different, as different, diverse and multifaceted as there are strains, stages, grades and types of BC itself! So no one's journey is the same and no one's approach can be superimposed onto someone else's. What you have to do, and feel, is what is right for you.
One question I used to always ask myself (instead of the 'stay positive' mantra) was: "How is this (X) helping me to recover, to heal, to move forward?" If it wasn't, then I felt that I needed to do something about it. If it was, then I needed to do more of it :).
Take care and big hugs
Nikki x