@AllyJay I know it happened but it's just unimaginable to me how you have got through it - that treatment was an abomination. Small words but I hope you know...
All good thoughts here. I have been lucky enough to have an onc who recognises the emotional and sexual well-being issues but it still doesn't help much. There are psychs attached to the clinic but when I tried to access the service, I could not get an appointment. I was falling apart when I eventually got into a psych through the Country Fire Service family mental health programme.
I hate the "new normal". There's nothing normal about it. I'm floundering most of the time, I'm so bloody tired, I have no memory, I'm clinically depressed, my body doesn't work properly anymore, I feel as if I have woken up having aged about 20 years overnight, I wonder if I'm going to see my kids grow up and become whoever they're going to be, I feel disconnected from my body and often from my inner self, I'm a cranky bitch with a short fuse, I feel like running away but suspect I might follow me.
