@kmakm,
Isn't it odd how we automatically say "fine" when somebody asks how we are doing. I was thinking of this Monday at work. Next to no sleep and my back pain at a level that walking was difficult for the first few hours out of bed. I walked in feeling a bit zombified but still every time someone said "good morning, how are you?". "Fine thanks" WTF I felt like crap.
@iserbrown, So we should be proud of muddling through this mess and the forum is a godsend. I don't think even counselling can cut it quite like talking to people who've been through it and come out the other end or are still struggling through the middle finding their way.
Love and thanks to everyone for their help, suggestions and a shoulder to cry on or whinge and vent to.
xoxoxoxo