So im writing this just to get it out. I dont really expect a solution. Apologise in advance if the un pc nature of this is not nice. I am getting a counsellor soon. Ive been aware all along that ...
I feel for you @Dory65. I hope your onc can give you more answers, and if not maybe taking a break from them would be a good idea. I also believe in having a strong body to be able to handle anything it might need to. Sending you hugs ♥️