Un pc thoughts
So im writing this just to get it out. I dont really expect a solution. Apologise in advance if the un pc nature of this is not nice. I am getting a counsellor soon. Ive been aware all along that ...
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Thanks, @Zoffiel and @Abbydog,
I was fine, then I was diagnosed, then suddenly everything changed, and things 'happened to me". Lack of control and so little information, no definitive answers - anathema to me.
Sometimes I nearly 'get it' (that oncology is just guesswork), but then I have existential hiccups - like now. I'm definitely having a 'wobble' in my ability to 'do as I'm told', especially when it doesn't entirely make sense, is counterintuitive and harms me in so many ways - plus my oncologist doesn't even try to explain anything and does not inspire confidence - but is following protocol/current best practise, as you said.
Then the thought of the sheer length of time to be taking ghastly tablets/injections....12 months on Zoladex, "and then we'll see"..."5 years on Letrozole, and then we'll see"...I just feel so rebellious! :# I was never a compliant child. I may have appeared obedient, but I was actually doing exactly as I pleased when no one was looking...and never got caught >:)
So grateful to have you guys. Lxxx
I was fine, then I was diagnosed, then suddenly everything changed, and things 'happened to me". Lack of control and so little information, no definitive answers - anathema to me.
Sometimes I nearly 'get it' (that oncology is just guesswork), but then I have existential hiccups - like now. I'm definitely having a 'wobble' in my ability to 'do as I'm told', especially when it doesn't entirely make sense, is counterintuitive and harms me in so many ways - plus my oncologist doesn't even try to explain anything and does not inspire confidence - but is following protocol/current best practise, as you said.
Then the thought of the sheer length of time to be taking ghastly tablets/injections....12 months on Zoladex, "and then we'll see"..."5 years on Letrozole, and then we'll see"...I just feel so rebellious! :# I was never a compliant child. I may have appeared obedient, but I was actually doing exactly as I pleased when no one was looking...and never got caught >:)
So grateful to have you guys. Lxxx